Friday, October 15, 2010

庆幸

crapped by xiaoern at 11:40 PM 0 comments
<3 <3 <3

对,我又回到了我的部落格。
真的好久没有上来写一写了,不知道今天那来的兴致。可能是因为对经历过的种种事情,有感而发吧。看见我今晚的标题吗?哈哈。。。

为什么会说,“庆幸”呢?对,我就是觉得自己很庆幸因为我有一位无可挑剔的知己。有些人说,朋友不用很多,真心的,一个就够了。我也很赞同这句话。因为,朋友之中,上天赐给了我一位很好的知己。=D 她,让我学会了很多,明白了什么是人生,改变了我的人生观。真的非常感谢她在我的人生道路上一路陪我走到今天。从她身上,我学会了什么是坚强,无论发生了什么事,她都会让我从谷底慢慢地学会爬起来。也许是她经历了很多吧,总觉得她不怕风吹雨打,能够很坚强地去面对任何事。有时,会觉得自己很懦弱,因为我看见了她那打不死的精神。哪怕什么起起伏伏,她都会把它看成是人生在道路上学习的过程。真的佩服,佩服。。。
这几年来,我相信我们都经历过很多很多的事情,看着彼此有笑,又哭,又苦,又甜,相信也体会了很多。很庆幸的,她陪我度过了这么多,教会了我这么多。。。真的很谢谢你。虽然我这位知己是位“香蕉人”,但她很鬼聪明,我觉得她大概知道我在写着她吧!谢啦!哈哈。。
每次,和她聊天时,心里的烦恼就很像那拉的很紧绷的塑胶带,忽然收束了。人也轻松了很多,心情也理所当然的好了起来。大概是听了她那番话候,再想一想,自然地,问题就迎刃而解。在她面前,不必演示,不必伪装,卸下面具,可以毫无保留地畅谈。可以做会自己
=)

不知道今天错了那根筋,就是很想把这份心情在这里告诉朋友也好,经过的路人也好,总之是谁都无所谓。想告诉大家我对这位知己的感激与安慰。相信路人甲或路人乙都有过这种心情吧。今晚,本人就忽然觉得其实天塌下来也没有什么大不了,因为没什么事情是解决不了的。即使,现在你可能觉得是世界末日的来临,但明天又有可能被上帝拯救了呢?没有人会知道。原来,我活了二十岁,才领略了“船到桥头自然直”的这个道理。应该还不算太迟吧?
未来,还有更多要去学习的事物,那又为何绕着自己的世界里打转呢?人生还有很漫长,但并没有太多的时间等着我们。
珍惜,现在。盼望,未来。抛弃,憎恨。
懂的爱惜身边人,把美好的回忆都放进心里的那个“相簿”里。




Monday, September 13, 2010

crapped by xiaoern at 8:41 PM 0 comments
昨晚,又是一个很讽刺的夜晚。不知道该高兴还是替自己悲哀。。。最后,还是忍不住地哭了。

反反复复,也习惯了。才发现,原来自己还是那么地放不开。整整一年多了,我。。。还爱你。好几次,有一种莫名的冲动,很想告诉他心里的感觉,但,还是没有拿出勇气来。很想很想念你带给我的回忆,即使是回忆,无论开心的,伤心的。。。都很怀念。还以为时间可能可以治疗那道曾经被你留下的伤痕,潇洒地走出你的世界。但最后,你还是回到了我的世界。有时,我们以为可以放弃的,就往往是你最刻苦铭心的。很多人都劝我放弃,但他在我心里还是留了一个无可取代的位子。人的心,很复杂,有时叫你放弃,有时叫你坚持,有时叫你忍耐。。。所以,我真的不懂我的心,唯一知道的是,我还爱他。天啊。。。那几时才可以才可以有个结局??

昨晚,当我你告诉我时,还真的。。。有够。。难受。。。
明明是我想知道的但又最害怕知道的。。。做人真矛盾。。。

下一步,我该怎么办呢?


Wednesday, August 4, 2010

失败

crapped by xiaoern at 7:23 PM 0 comments
对,又到了我心情不太好的时候。。
很难过,因为考试考不好。
有的人会想,其实也没什么大不了,但对我而言的确是很重要。
我很失望,很不开心,因为我觉得我辜负了那辛苦为了赚钱养家的父母。
爸,妈,真的很对不起。我答应,不会再有下一次。
其实,刚看到成绩的时候整个人都崩溃了。。眼泪也不由自主地掉下来。。很失败吧?
对,我就是那么的懦弱。又怎样?我也是人嘛。。
很勤兴的是,原来身边还有很多朋友的支持和关心。。很高兴有你们在我身边。。

我很努力地安慰自己,和自己说,失败其实也没什么大不了的啊。。只能再爬起来也是一个新的开始。记得。爸爸曾经告诉过我,如果你从一开始就想着失败,那就注定会失败。想了一想,真的有点道理。重点是,不要让恐惧打败自己。他讲得也对,失败了可以再来。都活了二十年了,酱简单的道理也因该要接受和明白吧。

好,再次的机会只好把握,决不放弃,否则就对不起自己。

今天的心情真差!!




明天会更好吧?

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Humans are meant to be selfish?

crapped by xiaoern at 4:30 PM 0 comments
Told cha I will update my blog from now
and, yes.
I'm here again.

Guess what?
I'm posting this in the campus's library now.
Sigh.
My final exam is next week and I feel my brain still stuck with grass instead of what I have read.
How? =(
This is the first time my tears kept dropping when I was doing my management accounting.arghhhh!!! wth wrong with me ahh??

idk la.
Lets count down til my finals say bye-bye to me.
urmmmm...
8 days?

yaya...1 week and 1 freaking day. =)

God, please please please bless me


.............................................................

Okay, I guess I should stop my craps and back to the books.

=(

Friday, July 2, 2010

Confused

crapped by xiaoern at 10:25 PM 0 comments
Another post of the day.
Hrmmmm...I feel like blogging today.Idk why.
Nvm, perhaps I'm just so stressed out with the mountain of chapters which I haven touch yet.
How???





Study lorh
...............



But why I'm still slacking here?
hrmmmmmm....

爱和恨难道就是在那一线之差吗?
我很害怕。。。。
再回到那一直期待你会回头看我的时候,
因为,我不想再等待。
等待,真的很漫长,很无奈。。
因为没有期限的等待真的很傻!

也许,我还爱着你的那么一点点。。
就一点点。

不想再回头看到自己的愚蠢,
前面,还有一道引向你前进的一道光。

Hahahahaha....

I'm just so lame. =)

Back. 2 July 2010

crapped by xiaoern at 12:06 PM 0 comments
OmahhhhhhgoDDDDD!!
I've left my blog since March?? wtfbbq =P
And now, I am back =)
The reason why I am back is actually no reason. It is just due to my lameness..ehhermm...
and of course I felt so sorry with my poor little bloggie. *sobsob
Okay, from now onwards,I promise to update when I'm free kay??
Ahhhhahhahahhaha....
Serious larhh...I will post something when I'm really free!






My finals are coming
.......
Free??
errrr....


I will still blog something! ahahaah..
at least...something rite?


It's been so long since I din blog,
ehhermm...but my life is going on as usual.
Tho there's happenings out there...but, it's already a past tense rite?
Everyone will have to move on and move on...move until the day that u have to sit on the wheel chair larh i guess???
I'm so sorry, please forgive my fai-ness

Time flies, and everything changed. People? Place?Me?
ermm...I got no idea actually.
But I'm glad that those who are always here for me are still here for me =))
Thankyouuuuuuuuu!!!!
But....for those who should get lost in my life had just gone.
ahahahaha...
and those who suppose to be here had just flied!!!
if you're get to read this,
Please please stay alive til you back to M'sia please....
You're a strong plant ? rite??


==''


Okay, it's time to open my IMA book. =(

buhbey!



Lastly, Happie birthday KAR YAN!
Have a blast =)

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Only heaven knows

crapped by xiaoern at 1:33 AM 0 comments
Time flies,
It's march now but what happened in the past is still fresh in my mind.
I missed grandpa. Whenever I thought of him, my tears rushing out without my control. I can always remember scene by scene, the night he left us,how I used to hug my family tightly, the days when he's admitting to hospital,lying on the bed struggling and trying to breath so hard just to stay here with us. And now you left us with lots and lots of memory. If he's still here, I promise and swear that I will spend more time with him, I wanna talk to him,I wanna let him knows that I care about him....but everything is too late. I know regretting is meaningless but I did. Whenever I saw people's grandpa, I wish that he's still with us...he made me feel proud because he is the best Ah gong i ever had, the great man in my entire life

You're always in my heart

I Love you, gong gong =D
 

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