累了

我又在想你了。

他妈的！有时候真的很气自己。为什么会这样？

过了这么久，原来我还徘徊在那段回忆里。有的时候，觉得自己就被这些回忆里包围着，好像永远都走不出来。是我自己在钻牛角尖吗？什么都做了，可是还是没办法走进你的世界里。

当你正在往前走时我还在后面等你，不管自己有多伤但一步都不想离开。哪怕有一天当你回头时再也找不到我。

心里真的很矛盾，也很多的疑问。

我的天啊！

我该怎么办？

梦，就算再美却只是个梦。无论如何，我也得醒过来。

祝你幸福。

拜。

lovelydoveymummydaddy! =D

Yuppieeeee!

Finally I'm here to do some updates.

Since I am having a so called independent-study-week, ehhemmm...kononnyer larh study.hahaha.But, I will still try to touch some of them. *ehhem xD Not some of them, is ALL of them larh lazy bum me!

I've been slacking these few days as I was thinking that I should rest more and more and more. wth, are you sure I deserve to rest for so many days?LOL..and finally, I should start my so called independent study now! ishhh...but,but, but horr...okay, I will still try my best X.x"

Went to the SS2 night market AGAIN(I went there every week and even my independent study week?omg) cause the bro wants me and da parents to fetch him back to PJ.BUDAK NI MANJA BETUL! ishhh..

Never mind, here brings me a good news..ermmm..actually is more than that!teheeeeeeee! I am super happie that my dad finally bought me a car. YAY! tho it's a used car, but...I'm so glad that you made an effort to find a nice nice car for me. FYI, I am so surprise that he actually find all those cars via the internet and newspapers, copied down every single details on the paper and bring us to many places just to find a good one for me. Thanks dad. =D

Another thing that made me touched of is the conversation in the car when I was driving them back to Seremban.

D: So, when are you going to graduate?

XE: 2012 I guess?

D: Are you going to England then?

* mummy shaking head

XE: ......

D: Are your friends going?

XE: yes yes yes! Many of my friends are going ;(

D: Okay, you better go with your friends then at least you all can take care of each other and finish your final year there.

M:No need to go larh, she can finish her course in Malaysia and why not study here?

XE: Can get a difference experiences mah... @.@"

D: Nevermind, she can goes as long as she wants to study then even if I pawn all my properties(hing kah dong chan?) I will also let her study. Don't worry =)

*touched! T.T

I was like....WTH!

I don't know what made me speechless at that moment, but those words melt my heart.

I was thinking how would I repay them in the future, but I think the only way is to make them proud of having this daughter =D

Thanks daddy and mummy, without them I am not who I am now. Thanks for giving me my 'dream'

loves.

=D

我喜欢，不，我爱

ello!

♥

Another week has gone and here comes a brand new week! =D

I always like to starts something with a new week which I don't know why. Always told myself, if my goal for last week has failed, never mind, here comes a brand new week which is fresh and new. As long as I din't give up, I could still carry on and I believe one day it would be real. Failing is sad, but giving up is the worst. So, lets start all over again. =)

Oh yeah. I think it's time to update about previous week as there's so many birthday celebration went on XD

HAPPY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BUDDY, YVONNE CHEOK and SHIH YIAN. ALSO, TO MY BRATHA!

♥♥♥

Lets start with this long old good friend of mine. I knew her since secondary school and we had been through alot of ups and downs since high school. I am glad that after so many years you had became one of the pillars in my life. Hope you love the presie and we actually failed to give you a surprise rite? =(

Our friendship will never change as we have to let our dreams and promises come true in the future. Love ya very muchie!

♥Me ♥ Yvonne♥ 30/10

Here comes the brother. Well, he is 18 this year and i hope that he can be more mature than last time. *ehhemm

We never say I Love to you each other before but I know you show it in some kind of way which I can feel it. He is my one and only brother, of course he should be the sibling I love the most. 生日快乐啦！老弟

♥♥♥ 1/11

HAHAHAHAHAHA! The last birthday girl.

She is actually a nice friend who I knew since my foundation year. I am happy that we can still be at the same class together during our degree. Tho we just knew each other not long..ermmm...but I consider quite long cause it's almost 2 years! hehehe...I am so glad that met a friend like you!

HAPPY SWEET 19th

♥

Hope you like the presie and the surprise!

♥♥♥4/11

Everybody meant something to us ,don't you think so? They play a role which we doesn't realize that made you growth up in every single stage of our life.

I'm so glad that god gave me fate to met all the people no matter they are staying with me or just passer by because their footprint colored my plain white piece of paper .

Thanks guys

♥

我的未来不是梦

一到了深夜，人总是会去想很多。。。


我觉得，我是一个很不实际的人。往往会陶醉在一些在现实生活中不会发生的事情，但还会在期待着。

你知道吗？

在一线希望里，埋藏着很多的可能性。有的时候，你抱着期待和希望去等待一些事情，你不会知道接下来会怎样，但往往会发生令你意想不到的。是好的，还是坏的，我们都得去接受，不是吗？这就是我们所说的“人生”。

我觉得，虽然他们都说，“人生，就像一场戏”，但它并不是。

戏，是导演拍的，但我们的人生是靠我们自己演的。在戏里，我们通常都会知道最后的结局，可是我们演的人生就要靠自己去努力编制。到最后，是戏剧还是悲剧？自己才知道。

在这几个礼拜里，我想了很多。觉得，该是时候选择自己的路了，也不能老是靠着爸妈来过生活。他们也总有把养育孩子的负担放下的一天吧，我真的不想成为他们那沉重负担。

我，真的能独立去面对未来吗？

虽然有点害怕，

但，

我很期待！

很想看看自己的结局 =)

到底，我的未来会是怎样呢？

那，就要问自己咯。（每一天，都在问。。。）




这就是我刚看完的韩剧， 《韩版恶作剧之吻》。

哈哈！还真的蛮好看的。也许，真的很羡慕那女主角吧，到最后她那经历过千辛万苦的单恋终于开花结果了。相信，有看过《恶作剧之吻》的人都知道戏里的故事吧！哈哈。。

我都说我不切实际的啦！现在信了吧。。。


因为，这就是戏里和人现实中的不同吧。。。

而我们往往就是那么希望着当戏里的主角。。。

也许，这也是我喜欢看偶像剧的原因。

现实里根本不能发生的桥段，却还是那么期待着拥有最完美的那段爱情。。。

Truth

HELLO!!

=D

I just realized that 24hours a day is actually not enough for me! Saturday is gonna end soon and Sunday is saying Hi to me which means my beautiful weekend is also ending as well.In fact, I still got alot to catchup with my to-do list. =P
So yeah, I started to blog again and I am pretty sure I will always be here.Hahaha...okay, I know it sounds like I am so desperate to do the posting, job after dumping my poor little bloggie for so long ,but at least I wanted to blog so badly at this time. LOL!

Okay, lets begin this with my uni first. The new semester started and I am no longer a year one student in uni anymore. Opsss....which means..my work loads will become heavier in year two plus, my time table was sucks! It doesn't sounds good rite? haha...By the way, this is a new chapter for me after a long long break and I'm glad to see all of my uni friends again as I miss them so much during the holidays. Having our gossip session again when we met up together and the hanging out was just so fun and great. =D

Well, not forgetting the yam cha session with my banana buddy! Tan lay wern, I know you are superb free enough to translate sentence by sentence since your break is still on.wahahahahaha...san fu mou? nola...I know you enjoy reading the previous post. Loveeeeeeeeee you very muchie la XD I hope my banana buddy can always be my one and only banana buddy.haha...un me not? LOL. only the banana buddy will un how happy am I when I get to met her after 1887218391283192 months? not that long actually but just wanna emphasize that we actually should meet up more! ngek ngek ngek! Anyways, all the best for you larh :D



Living on the earth for 20 years,
Sometimes,I think that staying alive is hard.
Perhaps, I was that joker who made my road tough.
sucha fool?


buhbye

庆幸

<3 <3 <3

对，我又回到了我的部落格。
真的好久没有上来写一写了，不知道今天那来的兴致。可能是因为对经历过的种种事情，有感而发吧。看见我今晚的标题吗？哈哈。。。

为什么会说，“庆幸”呢？对，我就是觉得自己很庆幸因为我有一位无可挑剔的知己。有些人说，朋友不用很多，真心的，一个就够了。我也很赞同这句话。因为，朋友之中，上天赐给了我一位很好的知己。=D 她，让我学会了很多，明白了什么是人生，改变了我的人生观。真的非常感谢她在我的人生道路上一路陪我走到今天。从她身上，我学会了什么是坚强，无论发生了什么事，她都会让我从谷底慢慢地学会爬起来。也许是她经历了很多吧，总觉得她不怕风吹雨打，能够很坚强地去面对任何事。有时，会觉得自己很懦弱，因为我看见了她那打不死的精神。哪怕什么起起伏伏，她都会把它看成是人生在道路上学习的过程。真的佩服，佩服。。。
这几年来，我相信我们都经历过很多很多的事情，看着彼此有笑，又哭，又苦，又甜，相信也体会了很多。很庆幸的，她陪我度过了这么多，教会了我这么多。。。真的很谢谢你。虽然我这位知己是位“香蕉人”，但她很鬼聪明，我觉得她大概知道我在写着她吧！谢啦！哈哈。。
每次，和她聊天时，心里的烦恼就很像那拉的很紧绷的塑胶带，忽然收束了。人也轻松了很多，心情也理所当然的好了起来。大概是听了她那番话候，再想一想，自然地，问题就迎刃而解。在她面前，不必演示，不必伪装，卸下面具，可以毫无保留地畅谈。可以做会自己
=)

不知道今天错了那根筋，就是很想把这份心情在这里告诉朋友也好，经过的路人也好，总之是谁都无所谓。想告诉大家我对这位知己的感激与安慰。相信路人甲或路人乙都有过这种心情吧。今晚，本人就忽然觉得其实天塌下来也没有什么大不了，因为没什么事情是解决不了的。即使，现在你可能觉得是世界末日的来临，但明天又有可能被上帝拯救了呢？没有人会知道。原来，我活了二十岁，才领略了“船到桥头自然直”的这个道理。应该还不算太迟吧？
未来，还有更多要去学习的事物，那又为何绕着自己的世界里打转呢？人生还有很漫长，但并没有太多的时间等着我们。
珍惜，现在。盼望，未来。抛弃，憎恨。
懂的爱惜身边人，把美好的回忆都放进心里的那个“相簿”里。

昨晚，又是一个很讽刺的夜晚。不知道该高兴还是替自己悲哀。。。最后，还是忍不住地哭了。

反反复复，也习惯了。才发现，原来自己还是那么地放不开。整整一年多了，我。。。还爱你。好几次，有一种莫名的冲动，很想告诉他心里的感觉，但，还是没有拿出勇气来。很想很想念你带给我的回忆，即使是回忆，无论开心的，伤心的。。。都很怀念。还以为时间可能可以治疗那道曾经被你留下的伤痕，潇洒地走出你的世界。但最后，你还是回到了我的世界。有时，我们以为可以放弃的，就往往是你最刻苦铭心的。很多人都劝我放弃，但他在我心里还是留了一个无可取代的位子。人的心，很复杂，有时叫你放弃，有时叫你坚持，有时叫你忍耐。。。所以，我真的不懂我的心，唯一知道的是，我还爱他。天啊。。。那几时才可以才可以有个结局？？

昨晚，当我你告诉我时，还真的。。。有够。。难受。。。
明明是我想知道的但又最害怕知道的。。。做人真矛盾。。。

下一步，我该怎么办呢？