When I looked at myself,it really reflects her.Now only I know how she felt last time.The pain is like,so torturing,you can't really take a deep deep breath.I felt the same too.And thus,i hate it.I got no idea how to get rid of it and i dunno how to get rid of you.damn.I've tried to control myself,so hard so hard.But I failed to do so.sigh.When I looked into your eyes,i saw it was so empty.I wish i can be the one beside you when you need help,or even you don't need me,but i'm willing to sit silently beside you.As long as you need someone,i wish i can be dere for you.haha...stupiddddddd...My heart sinked.so pain so pain..sigh...everytime i told myself,this was the one last cry,just let me cry like wutever?then i will be fine,but this seem to be useless for me.and yes,i hate to pretend infront of you..really really hate to pretend....hate it....i'm useless,i can't do anything..hate myself..ishhhh...just get da damn effin feeling off then i can be back to normal.yes,i can.