This morning was raining.But it suits me. erkz, suits me? i guess? woke up very early this morning but everyone went out earlier. Pehaps, the "early" is only early for me.haha..
Still the same week, everything seems to speed up without my control. Argh, I feel bad,very very very very bad. I got no idea why, because of assignments? friends? some silly stuff? omg, I swear, it's much more than that. I hate what I'm being now. Things's like, never end,never go and never starts. WTF? I get so pissed off over my work, cried for something which is super useless, starts blaming myself, oh yes, I know it's pointless but i still do so.My feelings are complicated and I hardly find a way out.My head is like spinning round and round, my life went up side down. Why why why? tell me why you so hard to forget? I hate this kind of feeling, hard,sour,pain, lost, silly??
And I just don't get it sometimes, why some people will ask me why am I still look so chilling and like, so free? so relax dere?and it's like, I'm so not serious in my work? these people are seriously pissing me off sometimes. Why?why must I show it infront of you guys? I know you people are very busy with your stuff but included me also rite? I don't show it doesn't mean I'm not and not cared about it. It's because I think that, i shouldn't show it to make my life worst. Yes,yes, I'm pissed, so? should I show that kind of face infront of you guys? Sometimes, what you saw is not what actually happening. Busy then busy la, if you all are busy, why still have time telling me why am I look so and so? I'm not trying to yell here, but, I already can't stand it. I wanna be chill, I wanna cheer ppl ard me and not showing how pissed i am. Okay, except my blog. You can either choose to read or leave? I don't care. Because this is the way I can feel relief.
I'm gonna end this in 3 weeks time. I don't care. I know blaming here is very pointless. In fact, I should get over it and move on. Things come in a second, yet, I'm holding it for 1223234234324234 months? when I'm gonna let go? I don't know. CCTV, you know what? I'm always telling you I need time to get over but everytime I told you about that, I'm a coward. All of these craps are my excuse, the excuse that letting myself step in even deeper, and I still thought there will be miracle?haha, how "innocent" ? how stupid am i? This is the very very last time I'm telling you, I getting over.which means, in the process to make myself happier.haha =) I know time will prove everything,would you say, yes. try ur best? =p I'm learning to be as tough as you.haha...Thanks for listening to me everytime when I felt depressed. fuhh, yea yea, I'm. Most of the time when I'm alone, the emo will say hello to me.wtf?? I really don't wanna feel it that way.hrmmmm...
By the way,emo also have to continue with my assignments.aih....stressful week! next week LAW strats,next next next week?FINALS!!. aduii...can't imagine how I gonna cope up.But still, I don't wanna let the "old's " down.
kay, need to continue with another post.For the "N poh". erkz...it's a new nick name for her. =p.
Everyone, have a nice weekend.
Stay tunned.
Still the same week, everything seems to speed up without my control. Argh, I feel bad,very very very very bad. I got no idea why, because of assignments? friends? some silly stuff? omg, I swear, it's much more than that. I hate what I'm being now. Things's like, never end,never go and never starts. WTF? I get so pissed off over my work, cried for something which is super useless, starts blaming myself, oh yes, I know it's pointless but i still do so.My feelings are complicated and I hardly find a way out.My head is like spinning round and round, my life went up side down. Why why why? tell me why you so hard to forget? I hate this kind of feeling, hard,sour,pain, lost, silly??
And I just don't get it sometimes, why some people will ask me why am I still look so chilling and like, so free? so relax dere?and it's like, I'm so not serious in my work? these people are seriously pissing me off sometimes. Why?why must I show it infront of you guys? I know you people are very busy with your stuff but included me also rite? I don't show it doesn't mean I'm not and not cared about it. It's because I think that, i shouldn't show it to make my life worst. Yes,yes, I'm pissed, so? should I show that kind of face infront of you guys? Sometimes, what you saw is not what actually happening. Busy then busy la, if you all are busy, why still have time telling me why am I look so and so? I'm not trying to yell here, but, I already can't stand it. I wanna be chill, I wanna cheer ppl ard me and not showing how pissed i am. Okay, except my blog. You can either choose to read or leave? I don't care. Because this is the way I can feel relief.
I'm gonna end this in 3 weeks time. I don't care. I know blaming here is very pointless. In fact, I should get over it and move on. Things come in a second, yet, I'm holding it for 1223234234324234 months? when I'm gonna let go? I don't know. CCTV, you know what? I'm always telling you I need time to get over but everytime I told you about that, I'm a coward. All of these craps are my excuse, the excuse that letting myself step in even deeper, and I still thought there will be miracle?haha, how "innocent" ? how stupid am i? This is the very very last time I'm telling you, I getting over.which means, in the process to make myself happier.haha =) I know time will prove everything,would you say, yes. try ur best? =p I'm learning to be as tough as you.haha...Thanks for listening to me everytime when I felt depressed. fuhh, yea yea, I'm. Most of the time when I'm alone, the emo will say hello to me.wtf?? I really don't wanna feel it that way.hrmmmm...
By the way,emo also have to continue with my assignments.aih....stressful week! next week LAW strats,next next next week?FINALS!!. aduii...can't imagine how I gonna cope up.But still, I don't wanna let the "old's " down.
kay, need to continue with another post.For the "N poh". erkz...it's a new nick name for her. =p.
Everyone, have a nice weekend.
Stay tunned.
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