Hello,
I'm back from Bali.
Well, the trip was super duper fun after all.
But, I don't have to mood to post in detail about that.
Something more crucial is waiting me to worry about.Yes, I just got a call from my mum right after I've just arrived in the airport, inside the plane. Unfortunately, she said that my grandpa have to admit to the hospital immediately. I was like, WTH? why? I was so freak out. My brain was stuck with those stupid question.
"what if ah gong........?"
"what should i do?"
"what should I say?"
" will he just leave me like that?"
idk

Went to the hospital yesterday with mom, aunt and grandma. Grandma does not looks good.duh, ofcourse larhhh..She's worried as I can see from her facial expression. My god, my heart starts aching again. I don't want to see everyone like that. When I went near to the bed, I'm abit nervous to see him lying there.He looks more skinny compare the last time I saw him.Also, he's getting weaker and weaker until he hardly move and he can't talk at all.OMG, my grandpa is a very good man, why must he be like that?
Mom told me, no matter how, we should accept this but she's the one who still crying there. I just don't wanna accept. okay, I know i'm so not in the reality world. So what?? who wanna see thier grandfather at this kind of condition? I'm afraid to see him like that, it will just letting my heart to become heavier. Yes, I cried everytime I went to visit him but I'm still trying hard to control my tears from rushing out. Again, and again and I still cry like...wth? I got no idea what I should talk to him. What I can do is just standing beside his bed and hoping that he will be okay. Sigh.

Maybe blabbing here is the only thing I can do? how sad. ='(