失去

昨晚，很有感触。虽然知道了有些事情是根本无法改变的，那就让它过去吧。失去了，显然会很不开心但也让我学会更珍惜现在拥有的。身边的朋友都对我很好，可以的话，我希望他们不要成为我生命里的过客，而在我生命里一直陪我走下去。也希望我们的友谊可以很长久。

我要让自己过得更快乐，更充实，因为我知道，前面还有很多东西等着我去揭晓，去琢磨。

我，要为自己而活。 :)

习惯

慢慢开始发现自己不喜欢“习惯”，而且还很害怕。有的时候，习惯就成了依赖，依赖久了就不想失去，越害怕失去，但往往就会离你越来越远。

有的时候习惯了一个人，也会害怕寂寞，尤其是在深夜，好怕就在冷冷的夜晚里一个人度过。寂寞，真的会让人感到空虚。越是习惯，越是知道“寂寞”的难耐。

失去，是人生的一个阶段，虽然很难熬但失去了就得习惯。
再习惯就好啦！晓恩，你可以的。 :)

拥有是失去的开始

如果，拥有是失去的开始，那我会在开始失去的时候珍惜。

来到了这片新的土地，我新的一页就开始了。心里充满了期待和盼望。但有时候还是会怀念，想念过去的甜酸苦辣。

有的时候，还是很想鼓起勇气想问问，你好吗？最近过得怎样？但最后还是把它删掉了。因为我害怕你不会回我。我，对你而言，还有什么意义？应该什么都不是了。
p/s: 真想回到过去

我要快乐

快乐的定义是什么？明明就知道，但为什么还要拐弯抹角呢？明明可以选择，但为什么会流泪？我，真的很差劲。彻底败给了自己。

因为想念，所以你给我的回忆会慢慢地浮现，
以为自己可以很坚强，却只是在伪装，

陶吉吉-愛很簡單(KTV)

那天，有个朋友用吉他，自弹自唱了这首歌，没想到，我竟然感动地掉眼泪。。明明是一首这么久的歌，也不是说从没听过，但那一刻，那旋律触动了我的心。这首歌，让我想起我究竟是怎么开始爱上你，也爱了那么久。顿时，心里很痛，为什么会让我想起你？你留给我的回忆实在是很多，有甜的，也有苦的。但那已经是过去了。
现在的我过得很好，放下了，也开始了属于自己的人生，再也不会傻傻地等着。等了这么多年也够了。现在的我，比以前过得更快乐。　: )

New Chapter

Hello! & Hi Bristol! Finally I'm here, hoping for a new and interesting life here. It's only 8.15am here and the weather here is pretty cooling. I love this place when I first arrived in London airport which I don't know why. Perhaps, everything was just too fresh for me? until I won't feel sad for leaving Malaysia. This is only the beginning of my story here, and I guess I'm starting to love the life here. This is my 3rd day in Bristol, I woke up quite early every morning, ermm, about 6plus? guess I still can't use to the time here. Enjoy hanging out with my beloved gracie and meishan. Met up wit hooi jett yesterday and we headed to the city, ouch, too much to talk about. For girls, I guess calbot circus is a very great place for shopping man. There are lots of clothes and accessories there, the shops are full with trendy stuff.haha..Too bad we've not much time to went in one by one. Heading out to buy some electrical stuff later. Kinda excited to go out again!  I guess I should share some pictures man :P

在这片土地呼吸，需要多大的勇气？

The first day I woke up!

Ss for while 

下一页的我，会去那里？

Feel sorry to my bloggie, it's been ages since I've left it death. very death?


Before I leave Malaysia, I promise to make my blog alive. :) Speaking of leaving, yeah, there's still 5 more days to go and I will be in Bristol,UK. I am kinda looking forward to start a new life there. Sometimes, I am too excited to go until I can't wait to leave in the next day. But, sometimes people around reminds me of my footprints in Malaysia. No matter sweet or bitter, memories are always kept in my heart. 


I wish to meet everyone before I ciao, especially my sister. If you're reading this, just wanna  tell you that I miss you so so much. Don't feel helpless, because no one can help me except myself to get over all these. God is giving me an exam, which made me to be tougher and I will try my best to score A. Perhaps there's still something I hardly get over now, yet I will make it ONLY NOW, but not stopping me to move further. Thanks for being with me all the time whenever I fall down. This time, I will walk by my own, I wanna be the strongest girl and make you feel proud of me alrite? I cried every time I dropped, but at least after my tears dried I will be able to stand up, so does this time. :)
Trust me, I can do it. 谢谢你，让我知道我不是一个人。

Leaving is the hardest decision I've ever made. I wish it doesn't makes me regret in my future and I know it won't.  Perhaps, the reason for being so excited is that I could escape? tho it sounds like I'm lying to myself but just for this moment, please, I wanna go.


This post should be a happy post but it sounds abit emo nao. hrmmm...okay, the next post I promise will be a happy one. I will always keep this blog alive when I'm in UK. 


Stay tuned!  :D