累了

结束了过去，仿佛觉得更加轻松了。 没有什么感情上的烦恼，约束 和困扰。有些朋友曾经鼓励我去寻找下一个，但觉得现在的自己，好像没有对谁有什么兴趣，而且还会觉得很麻烦。
我，变了吗？是对过去有阴影吗？已经不敢再去爱了吗？
我，觉得累了，累了去爱上别人，害怕那种说不明白的痛。痛过，才不敢爱啊。。。
就算有好感，也不敢去想了。因为，结局还是会和以前一样。

我，就这么不配得到幸福吗？

Hello bloggie, it's been such a long time I did not feel so stress over studies, perhaps I'm over enjoying my holidays and in the previous days I've been slacking like I'm living in heaven. OMG, tell me how to cope with my assignments and studies?  Mummy and papa will always repeat the same old thing when I skype-ed with them, "girl, you better study hard, don't waste our money and effort working so hard for you.". As the eldest at home, yes, I should work hard and make my parents feel proud of me and feel worth it sending me here. Yeah, and I am trying my best now, assignments is the first thing that came in to my head when I open my eyes in the morning/afternoon these few days, I was surprised cause this is so not me, the moment when I open my eyes , studies is the first thing that pop in to my mind, funny right? haha. Somehow, I am motivated to turn my assignment mode on, lol? Perhaps, this is the last last year for me to work hard on my studies, final year is really a hectic year to score good grades. 


So......






KXE, stop blabbing  here and get back to work. sigh, still got lots to go, and I feel better now. Sadly, I guess all of my friends are sleeping now and I got no one to talk to. That's the reason why I am here. FML >.<


p/s: LOOKING FORWARD TO MY SKIING TRIP! *clapppsssss 


oh yea right, unless i finish AMA :( 


buhbye blog. Thankyou bloggie <3 

張韶涵 - 亲爱的，那不是爱情 ( KTV )

Song of the night. :)

恢复

I'm bloated *burppppp! :D


Guess what's I'm listening? 你不在- 王力宏 , you're not here. nice song though, I like one of the lyrics in this song, 你不在，高兴还是悲哀？， 我受了伤再偷偷好起来。This suits me now, yes, I'm on my way of recovering , it's a good thing that I feel happy for myself. It's like, finally? :) tho it's not 100%  yet I know I am trying my best. Sis, you should be proud of me right? Thanks for accompanying me all the way here, gave me supports even the whole world thinks what I did doesn't make sense. Somehow, I never regret for every decision I made tho the outcome is not what I expected. 


我会好好地 :) <3

失去

昨晚，很有感触。虽然知道了有些事情是根本无法改变的，那就让它过去吧。失去了，显然会很不开心但也让我学会更珍惜现在拥有的。身边的朋友都对我很好，可以的话，我希望他们不要成为我生命里的过客，而在我生命里一直陪我走下去。也希望我们的友谊可以很长久。

我要让自己过得更快乐，更充实，因为我知道，前面还有很多东西等着我去揭晓，去琢磨。

我，要为自己而活。 :)

习惯

慢慢开始发现自己不喜欢“习惯”，而且还很害怕。有的时候，习惯就成了依赖，依赖久了就不想失去，越害怕失去，但往往就会离你越来越远。

有的时候习惯了一个人，也会害怕寂寞，尤其是在深夜，好怕就在冷冷的夜晚里一个人度过。寂寞，真的会让人感到空虚。越是习惯，越是知道“寂寞”的难耐。

失去，是人生的一个阶段，虽然很难熬但失去了就得习惯。
再习惯就好啦！晓恩，你可以的。 :)

拥有是失去的开始

如果，拥有是失去的开始，那我会在开始失去的时候珍惜。

来到了这片新的土地，我新的一页就开始了。心里充满了期待和盼望。但有时候还是会怀念，想念过去的甜酸苦辣。

有的时候，还是很想鼓起勇气想问问，你好吗？最近过得怎样？但最后还是把它删掉了。因为我害怕你不会回我。我，对你而言，还有什么意义？应该什么都不是了。
p/s: 真想回到过去