Farewell

At last, he left us. I know he will be going somewhere else but I don't know where. Heave maybe?
If he really went to the heave, god and angle, can you accompany him so that he's not alone there? Please promise me to be with him.

Ah gong, why you suddenly left us and went to a place that we can't find you? I hope that you will be in peace there after suffering for some time. You left us nevermind, then how about Ah ma? She will be alone and definitely missing you badly. We will miss you too.But,for you I think it's a relief right?At least you wont be suffering anymore.No more antibiotics, no more oxygen tank and no more needles or tube that made you uncomfortable.

So, should I relief then? I'm sad.

Ah gong, bye bye.I will miss you.

Get well soon

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
&
Happy 2010!

♥♥♥♥♥

Finally, I have the mood to blog.
How's your XMAS? hope everyone enjoy the Christmas =)
Well, mine was fun. I enjoyed hanging out with the same old faces during XMAS. I still remember, we did celebrated last year and it's also with the same person.HAHAHAHA..I'm still hoping to celebrate with you guys next year. =D
Time flies, and here comes 2010. But sadly, I can't celebrate with the gang cause I'm flying off to China next Thursday. hrmmm..but never mind, this time will be my first time welcoming a new year at the oversea.So, hope you guys will enjoy this coming 2010. =)

There's many happening in the past few days. Grandpa is still in a same situation and even getting worst. This was the first time I saw my grandma crying and I know everyone was so upset to see grandpa like that. I seriously don't know what can I do but just accept the fact. I tried my very best to control my tears every time I walked near to his bed and yet, its out of control. But somehow,we have to accept what is happening now and stay strong so that grandpa would know that we're always there to support him. I saw everyone cried today,my grandma,uncle,aunt and mom,but what can I do? I hope god would bless him.
Sigh.
What life actually meant to us?

Idk.

Hello,
I'm back from Bali.
Well, the trip was super duper fun after all.
But, I don't have to mood to post in detail about that.
Something more crucial is waiting me to worry about.Yes, I just got a call from my mum right after I've just arrived in the airport, inside the plane. Unfortunately, she said that my grandpa have to admit to the hospital immediately. I was like, WTH? why? I was so freak out. My brain was stuck with those stupid question.
"what if ah gong........?"
"what should i do?"
"what should I say?"
" will he just leave me like that?"
idk

Went to the hospital yesterday with mom, aunt and grandma. Grandma does not looks good.duh, ofcourse larhhh..She's worried as I can see from her facial expression. My god, my heart starts aching again. I don't want to see everyone like that. When I went near to the bed, I'm abit nervous to see him lying there.He looks more skinny compare the last time I saw him.Also, he's getting weaker and weaker until he hardly move and he can't talk at all.OMG, my grandpa is a very good man, why must he be like that?
Mom told me, no matter how, we should accept this but she's the one who still crying there. I just don't wanna accept. okay, I know i'm so not in the reality world. So what?? who wanna see thier grandfather at this kind of condition? I'm afraid to see him like that, it will just letting my heart to become heavier. Yes, I cried everytime I went to visit him but I'm still trying hard to control my tears from rushing out. Again, and again and I still cry like...wth? I got no idea what I should talk to him. What I can do is just standing beside his bed and hoping that he will be okay. Sigh.

Maybe blabbing here is the only thing I can do? how sad. ='(

I don't have the mood to blog, my head spin round and round but I don't know what I'm thinking nowadays. There's so many questions bursting out, why?why?why? and how?. Why nowadays I'm like that, like I can feel that I'm changing, in a bad way. wtf. I don't how I gonna change back, I don't wanna be the person who I'm not suppose to be. I choose to avoid sometimes although I know that's not right.WHy? what the heck I'm thinking right now? It seems to be so lost and I don't know how to get back to the right track. How?

There's happening that changed me? idk.
I don't wanna see him lying on the bed, become weaker day by day. My heart ache, I got no idea what am I gonna say when I see him. I tried so hard to control my emotion, keep remind myself that I have to be tough, not to cry so easily and yet, my tears just rush out without my control. I saw mom crying, but I can't do anything cause I'm not the doctor or even the god. I'm scare to look at him, I'm scare to see him, I'm scare to talk to him because I'm scare he will leave me someday. I don't wanna face it. I hate that kind of feeling. I hate to lose someone that I've seen after so many year. I want them to be healthy.I want them to be with me. I want people around me to always be around me. Don't leave me.

I'm sorry.

Lame, lamer, lamest =X

Hello,
Another update from me.

Well, basically,nothing much about me now.
what can I say?? I spent my days with family and friends. Hanging out all day long, dozed off in the early morning then woke up at noon, watching countless movies and dramas,read my new story books...well, that's how I use to make trough my day.ehhemm...that's it i guess?

Went for steambot with the old ones, dunno why, it is just 3 of us spending our dinner together.errmmmm...abit weird i guess, but it's kinda fun and I will appreciate the time spending with my bff. Going to have some plans for this week,then I will be in Bali next week.hehehe...

This was da funniest movie that I romdomly pick out from my hard disk. I forgot who pass it to me, but it's nice to watch again.Laught till drop, believe me. =D

Norbit:

New Moon:

Just watch it on Monday. They was awsome! ermm..I meant the characters.haha..Love them so much especially edward and jacob. Jacob was damn cool with his body and his short hair.LoLx.Going for the next round this week!! =p

Gossip Girl Season 3:

Watched the lastest episode just now.wohoooo...*thumbs up! =D
nice nice nice!
you guys should watch this also.
LoLx!

I wonder how am I going to spend my 3months holidays, It's lifeless.errr...abit??
No inputs but more output. wth! =(

Okay, mayb I should stop here. It's the early morning again.
nights!

《恋空》

It's about 4am in the early morning now. I know I shouldn't be posting here.Just finish watching this movie,

"Sky Of Love":

Omg, this movie is just......made me cried like.... omg...I just cant stand it. It's super extreme touching. This Japanese movie is just too awesome to make you feel sad,touch,down,lonely,or just whatever feelings when you watch it in the middle of the night. Okay, I know I'm abit crazy.but..... =((
I just love this movie so much. =((
Why love can be so pain?
Love can lead you to somewhere you belong to,
It can bring you to the right person who you've been searching for ages.

wth? I got no idea what I am blabbing here. So, I think it's time to off now.
buhbye!

It's Sunday!
but I won't be able to go home until my finals end. aiks. Sad case.
I miss Seremban.omg.

Okay, I just broke what I promised, I don't know why I feel like blogging so badly at this miserable moment. Everything reminds me of you. How mean you see? I missed you again. wtf!I felt bad cause I felt betrayed. I know you won't even care to bother and, as if you will un how I feel? Sometimes, I think that, you don't need friend(s). You just need PEOPLE. Just anyone who can hang out along with you so that you don't feel bored or lonely indeed.
I know I'm kinda not deserve to comment anything about you, but I'm sorry. You just made me feel that way. I wondered, do you treat me as your friend before?? Perhaps, it's not fair to said that and yet, I just can't control what is bursting out from my heart. I tried, I tried so hard to go near you, tried to understand your every single thoughts , hope to be more closer to you yet, I came back with disappointment and scars. Alrite, I'm not blaming here, is just that I felt bad after I know you longer and longer. You're not that "good" as I thought,no matter in or out.fine. I'm so blind. Perhaps, I'm blind from not seeing your good ones that why I quit the game. =) Quit, thats what I can do. no doubt, no matter how hard I tried to pass through, you just put up a think wall. Althought there's scars and pain, but I've learnt a lesson. Never bang your self to the door that will never open for you. It's hurts, and you heart will never stops bleeding until it got numb. *set up the white flag

Okay, whatever,whatever..books are waiting for me. I guess I should stick by to econs =(
Another hectic week,
sayohnara!
XD
XD

我会学着放弃

Got no mood to blog and I got no I idea what to talk about.
will continue blogging after my finals
wish me luck kay? =(

Beside, I'm so into these songs. Try to add them in to your play list.


"Cold As You"

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you


You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
(Died for you)

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you


"Goodbye"

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
all you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
hum┅┅
There's nothing left to try
Through it's gonna hurt us both
THere's no other way than to say good-bye

还是谢谢你让我长大了

Hello, I had fly back to seremban just right afta moral presentation. ehhemmm...da presentation was "great" perhaps?? thanks to CHRIS! ishhh...but, it's kinda fun cause this was my first time to slap a person during presentation. OMG, I just can't stand it.So, without considering any kind of shit, I just slapped chirs.hahahahahahaha... You won't angry right? of course you won't, you're da one who burnt urself rite? XD Okay, if you get to read this, I wanna apologize le.eheh...sorry =(

Well, everything was fine today except for making my parents and friends to worried about me. Because of my phone! =( I skipped accounts and bst today, not because of my laziness, it's just that I slept without alarm...ishishhh... So, they thought I'm sick or whatever happen to me..hrmmm...sorry guys =)

my phone=my alarm clock

no phone? no alarm lo. =/

no alarm= overslept =p

I'm a good good girl today. Picked dad up from his office, he got shocked when I called him to come down from his office. His current reaction was like, "harrrr??you driving alone???can boh?" LoLx. I think his mood was not bad for today, so I told him about my plan after foundation. ermmm...I think he kinda listen to what i said, at least he din pour a pail of cold water to me?hahaha..okay, then he decided to watch "Poker King" but when we reach at the cinema, tickets are all sold out =-=''.So, mummy decided to eat, eat again! She wants KFC this time..er er erm..and dad agreed. Although the supper was super fattening but I enjoyed spending time with them. I just felt so warm and safe when I was with them. =) I've to thank god by giving me such a wonderful family members,my parents and bro. The movie will be pospone to tomorrow.hehehehe....exam around the coner,have to work freaking hard this time as this will be my last finals for foundation. Wish me luck k? lolx.

Between, I'm looking forward to my holidays! I'll be going Bali and China which I still don't really know which part of china.I think it must be those "sang ka la" one.lolx..but at least better than staying at home right? haha...

OKay, I've to stop here now. Off to bed soon.nights.

untitled

Time for some little update about today. A meaningful out of meaningless posts =)

Today was just a so so day.
Went to midvalley with mum and bro, bought some stuff and have our lunch there. Walked around but nothing much to shop. I'm not really into it today and I don't know why. Then, mum drop me back to Subang.Before that, mum and bro went APT for hair cut while I went for manicure,french this time but it's really out of my expectation.Maybe my nails is not long enough.

Okay, things happened. My facial essence thinggy spilt out from the bottle, =( ishhhh...which means I have to spend 168 bucks to buy back another bottle.awwwww....heart broke! After finish unpack my stuff, I realized that my phone still inside the car. Somehow it's just too late for me to chase out because they've gone!! I got no idea what I should do then. So, quickly on my lappie to find sin ay on msn. She helped me to call mum and she said mummy ard reach Sg.Besi toll.ishhhh...so fast wehhh....The night without my phone, I feel so "unsafe" as I'm alone in the house.God,bless me kay?? I'm going back to Seremban tomorrow to get back my precious ph. OMG, phoneeeeeeee...I miss you so much =/

Hope tomorrow will be a better one for me. I meant my Monday. Monday oh monday.....

2.18 am

PeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeBoo! XD

Finally, I feel like posting. For the previous days, I got no idea why I'm not posting, but I enjoyed stalking on people's blog =p . Perhaps,I got nothing much to express; sad,happy,depressed, tired...whatever it is,life still moves on. I just realise that,the previous posts were so meaningless. Why I said so? because I think it's time to let things behind after holding on for so long. Keep repeat the same thoughts and feelings.errrrr...when I read back to the old one, I've been realise that I'm so dumb.errrr...is that the correct word to describe myself?"'DUMB" I think so. LoLx!

To be honest, I don't wanna gave up so easily, I tried so hard to stay but somehow time does not wait for us.One day, you will still need to get back to reality. Perhaps it's kinda hard, but we should learn. I learnt =D. At last, I'm walking out from the past.Memories are still past tenses which can only kept in a coner of your heart or maybe it has already been dumped? I choose to keep it somewhere else.

The day with or without you it's still a day I need to gone through,how silly if I'm always the sad one who bring down my day just like that? okay, "silly". "Silly" is the best to describe me. Now I'm awake in the middle of the night and I'm also awake from the dream that never comes true. Never back to that again. But I should sleep on my own sweet bed and dream about when can I be a billion or millionaire? =p hahahahaha... XD


ermm...okay, should end these craps now. I'm going to shop tomorrow! woooooohooooo....
will updated soon. The following posts will be a meaningful one. I promised =)
nights.

This is the first time I felt so helpless. What a day.Perhaps, this time I should not rely on anyone. Yeah, at last I did it. So,just whatever larhh..
Today is a bad day for me, so bad. I failed to control myself, but I did no wrong from doing that cause, can you please mind your words? I just can't stand any of them sometime. Of course I know she's so serious with her work and I did always let her down, ya, I admit. But,this time I did put my effort on it too, so why must u said something which i don't like to listen. Or perhaps, you din realize about that?

My long lost blog is active now XD.ermmm...I don't feel like writing much today.
ciao.stay tunned @.@''

I'm gonna miss you so much,

yes,You.

He's the reason for the tears drops on my guitar

Mad, that's what I'm gonna be. Someone told me, I can find the reason soon but I want it now.
I got no idea why every time I met you I have to behave like a mad lady, irritating and act like so not me.sigh. I though I can get over and yet, it always fail fail fail...failed! I'm sad, because I saw a gap between us. In another hand, this is what I want, I wanna stay as far as I can, perhaps, this gap is like a thick wall which I built it to protect myself,to avoid me from dropping into a hole where there's too deep to see the ground.
我每天都在期待着一个没有期望的奇迹，还傻到，以为不放弃，就可以走进你的世界里。太天真了，真的太天真。。。可是，为什么我到现在还是站在原地呢？为什么在你面前，我就不可以做回以前的我？
算了，只要你现在过得很好，那就好。虽然，不知道你在想什么。
我会每天都祈祷你有钱用。酱，你就不用伤心。=）

累

部落格的用途就是。。。当你不想对别人说出你的心情时，就只好一个人坐在一个很不显眼的角落，对着电脑一个字一个字地把你那说不出口的“无奈”打在部落格 里。不管谁在读着我的心情，是朋友，还是过客。。。今天的心情真的很不好。在朋友的眼里，也许，我是一个天天都在搞笑的傻婆，有时候他们说我很情绪化。 对，我就是想我身边的人笑。每当看见你们的笑容，我的心情也会不知不觉地好了起来。也许，有了你们在身边让我不会再感到寂寞。

有的时候， 我真的很难掩饰自己的心情，就把自己的情绪都表露在脸上了。我承认，我错了，现在的我，很痛苦。而我终于明白别人的心情有时你是会看不见的，也没有办法去 用一把尺来量量到底他们跌得有多深。当你看到别人在伤心，自己就会在想“他真的有那么夸张吗？为了一件小小的事都会哭到酱”。我真的是大错特错，别人的 痛，你又知多少？也许，我不明白当事人的心情，也没去顾虑到别人，所以才会忽略了身边的人。可能是自己也有说不出口的事情吧。所以才会有同感。
绕了这么多圈，最终还是回到了原点。我试着很努力地让自己向前走，不回头看，也很努力地去逃避，到最后还是回到了“零”。所以，我选择站在原来的地方，因为我累了，真的很累。够失败了吧？我也觉得很奇怪，为什么自己会跌到那么深，甚至连自己也看不清楚。
今 天，心情真的跌到谷底。看到一件你送我的东西，突然觉得它很珍贵。因为我知道，以前的回忆都不能再回来`，所以会觉得特别地想去珍惜它。此时此刻，甚至以 后，我不想再见到你，等到那一天，我的脑袋清醒吧。到那了个时候，可能我们已经是很陌生了。而你还会是我曾经最喜欢的那一个。。。。

Leave it blank, I'll try to paint with colors.

Just came back from drinking session with my special one. We talked alot, and I'm glad that I can spoke to you heart to heart. In front of you, there's no where I can hide. You're right though. I should trust people around me especially the person that I treasure alot. I felt insane, because I did a mistake, I ruin something really meant to me and it won't come back to me again. I ruined it by myself, so there's no one I can blame. Thus, everything changed by me. I hate myself,why must I did that just to pretend I'm not the one? I actually care about it so much but I'm acting like I can just move on without that kind of feelings. And I already tired of moving on,standing up and to be strong. I chose to stay here. Trying my best to change the plot in the drama.Hope I can do so. I wonder if the person get to read this or not, but from the bottom of my heart, I hope I can change, will the friendship still remain the same? can we get back to last time where the best moment I ever had? I got a feeling that you tried asking me to move on, or gave up? But, I chose to stay, sorry....I wanna stay here for you.so sorry...In the mean time,just this second,minute and hour, I wanna stay.
I know it's not easy to walk through this,I'm pushing myself to hell,but I have no regrets. I won't force myself to do something that hurts me even more, or perhaps, I'm just too tired to move on.So? my life still goes on like this. Thanks to the people around me.At least you guys will full fill my day with lots of fun and joke,to letting me stay alive =) seriously enjoying my college life to the max with no doubt.

CCTv, enjoyed beer-ing session with you. =p Lets drink again.....?

p/s: Sorry Chris, I'm rude today.forgive me.ok? XD

The dumbest thing I ever did. I'm regret,I'm shame for what I did yesterday night. SHIT! what I've done?sigh.The minute I woke up, I duno how to face everyone. Yesterday is just like a nightmare to me.A horrible night.I cant find any reason to forgive myself.WTH? I'm so so so sorry.....But I know a SOrry is no cure for everything.sigh!! Seriously, I m da devil yesterday. Why must I stuck here again?? I tried so hard to control and yet,dumb things happen??shittttttt!!!

Day by day, am I moving?

A post about yesterday. =)

Yeap, went to the orphanage with my classmates yesterday for moral assignments. The trip was awesome. =) Cs picked me up in the very early morning...omg..I slept at 3am and he came at 7.30am...din really sleep well that night. So, we met the others at TBS, waiting for Marcell to arrived with his two pretty housemate.hahahaha...After everyone's there, we started our journey to Klang's bah kut teh..the famous food in Klang was super licious! our table can clear all the bah kut tehs man...haha...this included wei han, kee ang,me,sin ay,ken and edrei.hahahaha...so pro in eating. XD Then chris's table was da second followed by Grace's. =) After our full breakfast, the next was the orphanage home. ermmm....kinda nervous though. This was the 1st time I went to the orphanage and I think that was a great experience. Nice to get along with those kids except one.=-='' i forget his name..he made my tears dropping...pro in insulting ppl.haha....but i know he dint mean to do so? i guess??Oh...and pity Sin Ay, a kid broke her watch which was given by her dad..hrmm...nevermind la..forgive da kid. =) okay okay, so forget about it. We celebrated a boy's birthday called Thomas. He's so cute.hahaha...We bought them Domino pizza for their lunch and really hope they enjoy the food,games and the birthday cake.I enjoyed as well,but it's hard to handle kids actually.=-='' hahaha!
I guess I should thank god for completing my life with a warm family,seriously, no doubt. Thanks for giving me everything that I'm having now..and..I felt so sorry for them. They should deserve something better though...sigh. God will bless them =)

So, after saying goodbye with them, we headed back to Subang. Went to Midvalley with mom and bro after that. I enjoyed once again =p hahahaha...my shopping trip! XD bought some stuff and so on .Reach seremban ard 8 and back to my sweet home. Omg, I miss my bed alots!!...haha...that's all for yesterday. =)

Today is another different day. I wanna become the devil,may i?? XD


Pictures Of the week :

kee ang's son, Thomas. The son and the father =P

Diane, playing piano. Vivalavida =)

the game session. =D

Mr Chris, pro in playing piano.AnJing.lolx!

erkzzz?

I got no idea what wei han is trying to do with chris =p

On the day back from picking up pizza! =)

what Marcell doing?haha

what Cs doing with da kid uh?Lolx!

lolx....kids sticking to kee ang. XD

-The End-

Happenings =)

HelloOOOooooOOO!!

I'm posting now.wahahahaha...finally?? I'm lazy, seriously I am.LOLx...and busy with stuff? Yeah. My life's great,how about you? =) There are ups and downs,but I still can handle. =) proud nehhhh....wahahahaha!!

Nowadays are getting busier yet contented. ehhemmmm...should be more serious in this sem, play less and work more and more...ermmmm...but it seems to be the same for me..lolx...okay, I will be more serious now. I'm serious XD yes, I am...Sriously, my mind is blank now, don't know what to write and I don't feel like writting much...hahaha...So, I'll just up load some pics =D

Happenings + SS pics

edward's birthday =)

Cousin back from US =)

Obviously, I'm ss-ing.hahahahahaha!

Lastly, I love my life. No matter there are how many obstacle, just do it ! =)
PLUS, I don't like people commenting about what I'm doing i guess? I mean, I know excatly what I'm doing now, I got my life, what I did doesn't mean I putting down, so?
Mind your own business lorhhh....hahaha...I m not pointing on people, they should know =)
That's all from me =)

我不知道那种感觉是几时又再回到来我身边，但，却让我有种莫名地安全感，很开心，很满足，更有勇气地想继续地往前走。就算是个错误，也不后悔。

那天，去光百货公司的时候，看到一瓶指甲油，哈哈。。。给我买了咯。。不知道为什么，我就是买了那瓶，更好笑的是当我回到家的时候竟然发现我已经有了一瓶一摸一样的。
我好像在讲废话？也有点啦。。。哈哈

喜欢就是喜欢，无论再怎么地把它给遗忘，就算是时间把它给带走，忘记了，可是当你第一眼看见它的时候，你的心还是帮你做了选择，我到底想说些什么呢？我也不知道。。。很高兴能够再找回以前的回忆，很开心能够看到我们没有杂质的友情，谢谢你让我感觉到你的存在，真的很心满意足了。这些回忆一直都会放在我心里的某一个位置，很满足了=)

我的妈啊。。真的不知道自己在讲什么。。哈哈。。但是又很想把现在想到的东西写下来。。很珍惜“回忆”。

走了吗？

Blogging like a blank piece of paper.What I suppose to say?hrmmmmmm...

Sigh, don't know why nowadays everyone seems to be so emo. Is emo a bad thing actually? When I'm emo enough, I'll just keep my mouth shut, seriously don't know how to express the thoughts that crossing in my mind. I feel like finding someone to talk, but at the end I'll just hold it cause I may think, will they think I'm annoying if i keep finding them? ishhh..... I can't solve by my own, or, perhaps I just need someone to listen to me,the one who can be trusted,can even read my mind completely. My feelings are complicated, and ofcourse I wish to spilt out but just fail to do so cause I just don't feel it right.aikssssss....The same thing happened again and again, after all, I'm still so useless,why? I tried so hard to carry a step forward, repeat the same thing again and again, kept remind myself to be more tough and strong ,won't be so emotional,just be the kind one. BUt, i failed. holly shit! I can't control what's inside me. i don't want to ruin something that I treasure alot. I just want it to become apart of my memory.sigh.It's really difficult...I din mean to be rude, I just wanna pretend, hiding the feelings that suppose not to be shown, i wanna be happy,just wanna be happy.

Anyway, I'm glad to have those people around me...my friends,classmates,nice people....they brighten up my day. Thanks. =) This week was the second week for sem3.hrmmmm...kinda free though =p hanged out with a bunch of friends as usual. college life what...i think it should be like that. =) Me, still the noisy me =p. OKay,got something I really don't un why, why guys "gap leng lui" is normal but why girls "gap leng zai" then ppl will say da girl fatt hao or 38 ar? seriously, I don't un. This is so unfair,guys got the right to watch pretty girls but why girls can't? babi, I don't care. i LOVE to watch "pretty" ppl ar, blow ar? =p Sorry for using broken english and be rude here.hahahaha...TBS got many, but all can watch can not eat d..LoLx!! XD

朋友，前面还有很长远的路，无论它是凹凸不平的，还是平坦顺畅，还是希望你能坚强地走下去。如果累了，就停下来休息吧！因为休息是为了走更长远的路。=) 也许没有人会明白你的痛，但我看见了你的无奈。希望你能抛开过去的伤痛，再次勇敢地走向未来。无论如何，我还是会在你的身边不断地为你加油打气! =)还记得以前你给过我的鼓励，让我走过人生的低潮，那，现在就换我做你的啦啦队，好吗？


deng deng deng~~ ss pic for the week XD



da way to pyramid =p in chris's car
*peace =D

that's all for today. ciao lurrrrr....zZZzzzZZZzzZZZ

Can I come in?

真的是有够搞笑，酱夜了还睡不着。。。。
不知道为什么，难道是我自己的问题吗？为什么每次见到你都会那么的尴尬。就觉得一切都好像不太自然。我知道，都是我心理作祟。我的自尊心就是那么的强，因为我觉得超尴尬。难道就不能好像以前酱吗？今天，真的真的很奇怪，你明明只是坐在我的面前，为什么我觉得你好像离我越来越远呢？很想跟你讲话可是却开不了口。这就是我，爱脸的我。=-='' 我很想很想回到从前，但确实有些东西都已经改变了。
我累了，真的很累。。。很想停下来想一想，还可以坚持下去吗?那，我下一步又该怎样呢？曾经，我有试着很努力地走进你的心里但还是走不进。我已经站在门口了，又如何？你还是不把门打开。。哈哈。。想起来还真好笑。。。明明知道有些东西是不可以勉强的，还是要去试试看会不会有奇迹出现。。。有些东西，无论你再努力，再坚强都好，没有，就是没有。以为真的会偶像剧那样？发梦都没酱早啦。。。现实就是现实。所以，现在的我死心了吗？放弃了吗？连我自己都不知道。我不想在你面前伪装，=-='' 不知道怎样解释，就是不能在你面前认输酱的感觉。我就是这样，这样就是我 >.< 如果我是你肚子里的那条虫不是好咯。。。我真的很想知道你在想些什么，难道真的是没有人能够走进你的世界吗？也许，那个永远都不会是我吧。。。
真的很对不起，我不想冷漠，不想伪装，很多很多的不想。。。

只想做回原来的我。。。

Hopes fading,Mind turn round and round.

1232323232133232312312131231312312.......
the words i can't express >.<''
Today was bad,so bad. Luckily, they brighten up my day. =) thanks guys!. XD Although they're younger but i'm da youngest! =p okay okay,get what I mean?LoLx! Went back to Seremban after BST. It was really sucks. I don't think statistic is gonna be nice to me.hrmmm...plus the lecturer,shit larhhh....I don't un what she's talking about.sighhhhh! this sem will be tough i know but I'm kinda excited because I'm going to uni afta this.wahahaha...

Time flies, flash back to Jan, I enrolled to taylor alone and I missed out the orientation week. Omg, that's da hardest time. Everything have to start from zero,til now, I'm not alone anymore. =) I should thankgod cause I get to meet those "interesting" people. I love being with them though. =) hahaha...we love "blowing water" so much. This has became apart of my hobby too =p....okay, 8poh den 8 poh larrrhhh...hahaha...so what?? actually, taylor got many 8poh 8 gong de lo.hahahaha...XD don't kill me plzzzz =p
Today's lecture sucks =) but today's people nice.ehhem ehhem...i just spot one. not bad not bad...LoLx! *jokingggggggggg! >.< but really not bad geh lo. sei wailing, u still owe me an intro!!hahahahahahaha... sorry, although I haven reach da "celery" stage,just below that larh.haha
Things is gonna change, sooner or later? who knows.
=)

Healing?

A very late post. =)

Finally, sem 3 had begin. woOOOOooooHooooooOOoooo!!miss all my college's friends.Too bad from Monday til now I still haven meet all of them.LoLx..kay, it's my fault. I skipped today's lecture.hahahahahaha...so,feel abit of guilty now...hrmmmmmm =p
OKay, nvm. 6 more hours I'm gonna see Nalira and Ms Hilda, still da same faces. I miss my class so much.Wondering how their looks now....hahahaha...
Talked about this few days, went pyramid and 1u with tan Pig Face for makan plus shopping!!...erm..so, I'm very broke now. =p...hopefully I can still survive til end of this month.god bless me plz? >.< bought this bought that.. wtf? how can I save money?? LoLx!! Anyway, I'm happy.So happy =) enjoying this week then the following weeks will be back to usual again. what summore? classes?lectures?assignments? alahhh...this was coll's dumb dumb life. nvm nvm. I like it though. XD Things doesn't change much. I'm still so not moving?wtfwtfwtfwtf! okay, perhaps, I've tried. Tried so so hard,but I'm still a failure. or mayb my brain is so noob shit, noob til I got no idea how am I gonna go through this??? noob noob noob! =D should end this post liao cause....it's late.nolah...later got class.hahaha...


Pictures then,
noob pics =D

steamboat buffet at Seoul Garden =)

Lastly, good luck to my sister, Jason! XD. hope he wont see this.hor sister? hahaha..

ticktokticktokticktokticktok..... XD

Fuhhhhhhhhh!! Since I got nothing better to do at home, I watched 花样男子 again!
wEEeeeeeeEEEEeeee!! XD
This was the second time.But, I was so in to it =p

Ops,my result was finally out this afternoon.ermmm...overall, I was half satisfied and half not.LoLxx....whatever larh...since dad dint make noise. So, I consider the result was okok la...hahaha!

Rotting at home isn't a good idea for me. Eat,sleep,tv,lappie,dramas,movies,fish a fish,musics,fb-ing,fb quiz?lol....blablabla...over and over again. =-='' sien sien sien!! what can I do? si fatt poh asked me to bang the wall, as if la as if la...ahahahaha..if she bang den i follow lorhhhh....LoLx!!kay kay kay,backing to coll next week. =)) yes yes!!yuppieeeeeee!
going to meet ms tan lay lay on sun.hahahahaha..tan lay lay!long time din call u TAN LAY LAY ad.hahahahahaha... =p

kay.ciao for dramas now =D

Flower 4, leng zai kan? =p

hohoho...he's my favorite. fathaofathaofathaofathao! XD

想？

想想想想。。。。。

*还是在想 >.<''

应该是想通了，到最后还是想通了。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
故事就是。。如此如此。。。这般这般。。。=p
总而言之，就是想通了咯。。哈哈。。如果，早点会酱想就不用将辛苦咯。别再哭了多不值得，失去的也是另一种获得。。。 ><''