Memorable night for N poh =p

bOoooooOOO!!
Finally, the party ended with lots of funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! haha..nice job everyone. We made Si Fatt Poh cried.lolx. Hope you enjoyed tonight N poh. =p

It's 4ish in the morning now. I just took bath after coming back from Hassan. haha...So, I will make this short and brief cause the purpose of posting this is, I wanna post up this video.

A big big suprize for her. =p

Well, wonderful, we knew each other since semester 1..erm...which means half a year?haha..All the memories built up our friendship..day by day, 3 of us always stick together. We loved to talk and laugh like crazy people, do stupid funny things i guess??haha...Although sometimes we will have some arguement, or bla bla stuff, but, haha...we are still "us".hope you enjoyed the suprize...lolx...so suang to see you crying...hahahahaha!!!

Lastly, I'm gonna repeat this again.
Happy Sweet 18th,
YOU CAN FUCK LIKE A PORN STAR NOW. =P
LOVE YA!

Specially for N poh

"N POH",you know what? I HATE YOU! actually,

Things changed in the past few weeks, I know I did something that letting you down and also,you get very disappointed with it. I felt so sorry too for not considered about your feeling. hrmm..I'm sorry. And I felt guilty too.I know I can't do anything to change this. So, I choose to be silent. I know you're trying to make me feel much much more guilty and yet, I did. To be honest,the way you behave, the way you talked to me seriously pissing me off.I don't like it. That's why I'm leaving this week. Tomorrow is your special day, you should be happier if I'm not here rite? So, I'm smart enough to stay at seremban. hrmm...I m sure you will enjoy with your friends. Anyway, I'm here to wish you Happy Birthday, have a nice one kay. enjoy. Lastly, I'm glad to have a N poh as my fren .sigh.bye bye.and sorry.


Pictures tell a million words.

当我还留在黑暗中守候，而你已经远远离开我

This morning was raining.But it suits me. erkz, suits me? i guess? woke up very early this morning but everyone went out earlier. Pehaps, the "early" is only early for me.haha..

Still the same week, everything seems to speed up without my control. Argh, I feel bad,very very very very bad. I got no idea why, because of assignments? friends? some silly stuff? omg, I swear, it's much more than that. I hate what I'm being now. Things's like, never end,never go and never starts. WTF? I get so pissed off over my work, cried for something which is super useless, starts blaming myself, oh yes, I know it's pointless but i still do so.My feelings are complicated and I hardly find a way out.My head is like spinning round and round, my life went up side down. Why why why? tell me why you so hard to forget? I hate this kind of feeling, hard,sour,pain, lost, silly??
And I just don't get it sometimes, why some people will ask me why am I still look so chilling and like, so free? so relax dere?and it's like, I'm so not serious in my work? these people are seriously pissing me off sometimes. Why?why must I show it infront of you guys? I know you people are very busy with your stuff but included me also rite? I don't show it doesn't mean I'm not and not cared about it. It's because I think that, i shouldn't show it to make my life worst. Yes,yes, I'm pissed, so? should I show that kind of face infront of you guys? Sometimes, what you saw is not what actually happening. Busy then busy la, if you all are busy, why still have time telling me why am I look so and so? I'm not trying to yell here, but, I already can't stand it. I wanna be chill, I wanna cheer ppl ard me and not showing how pissed i am. Okay, except my blog. You can either choose to read or leave? I don't care. Because this is the way I can feel relief.
I'm gonna end this in 3 weeks time. I don't care. I know blaming here is very pointless. In fact, I should get over it and move on. Things come in a second, yet, I'm holding it for 1223234234324234 months? when I'm gonna let go? I don't know. CCTV, you know what? I'm always telling you I need time to get over but everytime I told you about that, I'm a coward. All of these craps are my excuse, the excuse that letting myself step in even deeper, and I still thought there will be miracle?haha, how "innocent" ? how stupid am i? This is the very very last time I'm telling you, I getting over.which means, in the process to make myself happier.haha =) I know time will prove everything,would you say, yes. try ur best? =p I'm learning to be as tough as you.haha...Thanks for listening to me everytime when I felt depressed. fuhh, yea yea, I'm. Most of the time when I'm alone, the emo will say hello to me.wtf?? I really don't wanna feel it that way.hrmmmm...

By the way,emo also have to continue with my assignments.aih....stressful week! next week LAW strats,next next next week?FINALS!!. aduii...can't imagine how I gonna cope up.But still, I don't wanna let the "old's " down.

kay, need to continue with another post.For the "N poh". erkz...it's a new nick name for her. =p.

Everyone, have a nice weekend.

Stay tunned.

如果我变成回忆

累了 交困里努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

听着 你心像往常还有热
越美丽越更勇敢的
我还能展示什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 满山牵着你 看晚霞落去
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 满山牵着你 看晚霞落去
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你

如果我变成回忆 最怕我单独终极
顽固的烂在空气 不整理心里每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你总哭 承受失去
这样不公平 请你整理 把我忘记

this song was awesome. =)

当你快乐伤心的理由不必说我都明白

Time to talk! =p
Finally, BCP presentation finished today.fuhhh...Now, still left 2 more, Accounting and English assignments. Sigh. Well, today's presentation i did not do well i guess?hrmmm...too nervous liao...aihhh...this week was just so so..my mood totally sucks. I don't know why. Sorry to my friends, I know i behave like a dunno what monster?=-=' I felt so so bad too after being so rude. I'm sorry. Please forgive me?? =/ plus, the internet is not working these few days,arghhhhh! I feel so so so so bad without the internet..I have to carry my laptop all the way to the ADP library..aihhh...有够可怜的咯。。。。=-='

有些话，很想对你说，但我并没有这个勇气。在我预料之中，我们的距离已经渐渐地疏远。当我看到你的那一杀那，心里真的有千言万语想跟你讲，真的真的很想跟你聊聊。只可惜，看见你的时候，只有那一眼，而且，最最失败的是，我不知到怎么开口和你打招呼。真的有够“白目”。看见你，就觉得你越来越陌生。天啊，我连和你打个招呼的勇气都没有。很想念你，但你却不知道。很想很想去找你，但，想来想去都找不到借口。找到借口，又怕你会觉得我需要帮忙的时候才来找你，真的够白目了咯。算了吧，现在在这里讲都没有用。那天，看到你生气的样子，我真的吓倒了，没想到你真的是会生气。过后，我真的很内疚。跟你道歉，你又不要睬我。很可怜的咯。。。=（ 我真的不是想在你面前扮酷的咯。。。我只是不知道要怎样。

ok，讲够了，ciaoz.

lol, i just feel like expressing in both languagues.=p

Awake

Another week had gone. Tomorrow is Monday,suppose to be today,cause now is already 2am?. My brand new week gonna start from 7.30 am.ehhemmm..

Lets talk back about yesterday(Sat). Went to Uncle Lau's for bbq. Omg, can't believe that I got drunk.haha..Overall, da bbq was nice and fun. First time joining those old uncle old aunty and chit-chatting non-stop. Fun, plus alil notty?lolx.They are they are.haha...uncle lau has a funny look with sense of humour.He made me laughed til drop larhhh...really behtahan..haha..Reached home around 11.30pm. Vomit a lil, guess I had mix with beer and liquor, so I got drunk easily.haha..Then,dozed off!

So, woke up early in the morning around 9am. Packed my stuff and all, then parents dropped me back at subang. Thanks mum and dad. haha..Later, went to meet SFP and sin ay.LoLx. SFP? she'll what's the meaning of SFP!hahahahahaha! Follewed them to Mcd and catching up with their stories..went back after that and start doing the power point. Arghhhhh! assignments seems like never end?wth. Follow up with pool at club9, thanks to SFP for accompanying me, and kee ang too. haha..syoknyer...long time din play ad(last week played 1 round only =( ), I miss the balls so much.haha..Kee Ang was da Pro. So pro man...真是佩服佩服。。。哈哈！me and SFP oso cant win him.haihhh..2 vs 1 u know...but we lose pulak.. =-=' Okay, den we went yamcha at da mama beside JS. Da SFP really made alots of joke man..she told da man she wants indo mee, HOT one.=-='' As if lah indo mee ader sejuk punyer?LoLx. This is the 1st time I had a more proper conversation with kee ang and I think he's a small but mature thinking boy. LoLx! Had a nice talked with them.Mostly gossips and stories. But I enjoyed though. =)

Just about to finish the power point but i decided to left a few for tomorrow cause I'm gonna pig now.omgggg...so tired man. =P
ciaoz now. nite.

Tonite's

thinking hard to shoot the balls.haha...

Yesterday's
(@_@)
Sorry, I ss again XD

p/s : SFP thanks for your towel.LOLX!

Stay still

PMS seriously kills me for the whole week. I guess ?or it's just an excuse?.I don't know.(@_@'') I can be superb mad,crazy, silly,lame and bad. Sorry guys, I know I'm so mean. Sorry for my hot tempered, I'm so sorry. =( But I'm lucky. Lucky to have you guys around me, cheering me up all the time. Thanks for not dumping me a side. I'm proud to have you all.haha..I think you guys should know who is that?yes, you. NONO, is a bunch of you. Plus plus, my girls. THANKS FOR "THEIR" TEARS XD

This week still remains in busy mode yet it's pretty awesome. Too bad my mood ruined up everthing.sorry. but it's okay. I enjoyed with a bunch of my friends. Yeah, YED was on WeD.Overall, it was fun. =) Our class dressed in pink. hahaha.....this was so awesome =p

I'm lazy to talk in detail. Perhaps, photos win a thousands word XD

PICS OF THE WEEK :

do you and you know what's my precious?
oh, if you din know about that, then I'm telling you and you now. =O
spot the 2 with MCD's sunday. XD

Ignore this. I'm crazy with ss-ing.haha

LoLx!

we was stucking at this fitting room for too long.haha

all in pink and get ready for YED =)
the 3? they're kee ang, cs and wei han

at kee ang's place but still not forget to ss. =-='

again,

and,

again. @_@

my ji mui's =X

Tears washed out anger and misunderstanding, laugher brings back our memories and the friendship that i treasure for life.

he's good in styling.LoLx!

siong yan's gucci.but it suits me more.wakakaka!

对不起，我还是做不到。也许是我高估了自己。想想下，还觉得自己蛮失败下的，始终，还是放不下 。你们讲的对，我已经是无可救药了，怎么办？就让我下地狱吧。。。一路以来都误会了你，真的很对不起。。。我真的真的很内疚。有办法可以补偿吗？每次都踩到你酱厉害，可是，我们的沟通方式不就是这样的吗？其实，我是开玩笑的啦。=-=' 只要你开心，什么都不重要了。

I'm sucks.GG. @_@