Farewell

At last, he left us. I know he will be going somewhere else but I don't know where. Heave maybe?
If he really went to the heave, god and angle, can you accompany him so that he's not alone there? Please promise me to be with him.

Ah gong, why you suddenly left us and went to a place that we can't find you? I hope that you will be in peace there after suffering for some time. You left us nevermind, then how about Ah ma? She will be alone and definitely missing you badly. We will miss you too.But,for you I think it's a relief right?At least you wont be suffering anymore.No more antibiotics, no more oxygen tank and no more needles or tube that made you uncomfortable.

So, should I relief then? I'm sad.

Ah gong, bye bye.I will miss you.

Get well soon

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
&
Happy 2010!

♥♥♥♥♥

Finally, I have the mood to blog.
How's your XMAS? hope everyone enjoy the Christmas =)
Well, mine was fun. I enjoyed hanging out with the same old faces during XMAS. I still remember, we did celebrated last year and it's also with the same person.HAHAHAHA..I'm still hoping to celebrate with you guys next year. =D
Time flies, and here comes 2010. But sadly, I can't celebrate with the gang cause I'm flying off to China next Thursday. hrmmm..but never mind, this time will be my first time welcoming a new year at the oversea.So, hope you guys will enjoy this coming 2010. =)

There's many happening in the past few days. Grandpa is still in a same situation and even getting worst. This was the first time I saw my grandma crying and I know everyone was so upset to see grandpa like that. I seriously don't know what can I do but just accept the fact. I tried my very best to control my tears every time I walked near to his bed and yet, its out of control. But somehow,we have to accept what is happening now and stay strong so that grandpa would know that we're always there to support him. I saw everyone cried today,my grandma,uncle,aunt and mom,but what can I do? I hope god would bless him.
Sigh.
What life actually meant to us?

Idk.

Hello,
I'm back from Bali.
Well, the trip was super duper fun after all.
But, I don't have to mood to post in detail about that.
Something more crucial is waiting me to worry about.Yes, I just got a call from my mum right after I've just arrived in the airport, inside the plane. Unfortunately, she said that my grandpa have to admit to the hospital immediately. I was like, WTH? why? I was so freak out. My brain was stuck with those stupid question.
"what if ah gong........?"
"what should i do?"
"what should I say?"
" will he just leave me like that?"
idk

Went to the hospital yesterday with mom, aunt and grandma. Grandma does not looks good.duh, ofcourse larhhh..She's worried as I can see from her facial expression. My god, my heart starts aching again. I don't want to see everyone like that. When I went near to the bed, I'm abit nervous to see him lying there.He looks more skinny compare the last time I saw him.Also, he's getting weaker and weaker until he hardly move and he can't talk at all.OMG, my grandpa is a very good man, why must he be like that?
Mom told me, no matter how, we should accept this but she's the one who still crying there. I just don't wanna accept. okay, I know i'm so not in the reality world. So what?? who wanna see thier grandfather at this kind of condition? I'm afraid to see him like that, it will just letting my heart to become heavier. Yes, I cried everytime I went to visit him but I'm still trying hard to control my tears from rushing out. Again, and again and I still cry like...wth? I got no idea what I should talk to him. What I can do is just standing beside his bed and hoping that he will be okay. Sigh.

Maybe blabbing here is the only thing I can do? how sad. ='(

I don't have the mood to blog, my head spin round and round but I don't know what I'm thinking nowadays. There's so many questions bursting out, why?why?why? and how?. Why nowadays I'm like that, like I can feel that I'm changing, in a bad way. wtf. I don't how I gonna change back, I don't wanna be the person who I'm not suppose to be. I choose to avoid sometimes although I know that's not right.WHy? what the heck I'm thinking right now? It seems to be so lost and I don't know how to get back to the right track. How?

There's happening that changed me? idk.
I don't wanna see him lying on the bed, become weaker day by day. My heart ache, I got no idea what am I gonna say when I see him. I tried so hard to control my emotion, keep remind myself that I have to be tough, not to cry so easily and yet, my tears just rush out without my control. I saw mom crying, but I can't do anything cause I'm not the doctor or even the god. I'm scare to look at him, I'm scare to see him, I'm scare to talk to him because I'm scare he will leave me someday. I don't wanna face it. I hate that kind of feeling. I hate to lose someone that I've seen after so many year. I want them to be healthy.I want them to be with me. I want people around me to always be around me. Don't leave me.

I'm sorry.

Lame, lamer, lamest =X

Hello,
Another update from me.

Well, basically,nothing much about me now.
what can I say?? I spent my days with family and friends. Hanging out all day long, dozed off in the early morning then woke up at noon, watching countless movies and dramas,read my new story books...well, that's how I use to make trough my day.ehhemm...that's it i guess?

Went for steambot with the old ones, dunno why, it is just 3 of us spending our dinner together.errmmmm...abit weird i guess, but it's kinda fun and I will appreciate the time spending with my bff. Going to have some plans for this week,then I will be in Bali next week.hehehe...

This was da funniest movie that I romdomly pick out from my hard disk. I forgot who pass it to me, but it's nice to watch again.Laught till drop, believe me. =D

Norbit:

New Moon:

Just watch it on Monday. They was awsome! ermm..I meant the characters.haha..Love them so much especially edward and jacob. Jacob was damn cool with his body and his short hair.LoLx.Going for the next round this week!! =p

Gossip Girl Season 3:

Watched the lastest episode just now.wohoooo...*thumbs up! =D
nice nice nice!
you guys should watch this also.
LoLx!

I wonder how am I going to spend my 3months holidays, It's lifeless.errr...abit??
No inputs but more output. wth! =(

Okay, mayb I should stop here. It's the early morning again.
nights!

《恋空》

It's about 4am in the early morning now. I know I shouldn't be posting here.Just finish watching this movie,

"Sky Of Love":

Omg, this movie is just......made me cried like.... omg...I just cant stand it. It's super extreme touching. This Japanese movie is just too awesome to make you feel sad,touch,down,lonely,or just whatever feelings when you watch it in the middle of the night. Okay, I know I'm abit crazy.but..... =((
I just love this movie so much. =((
Why love can be so pain?
Love can lead you to somewhere you belong to,
It can bring you to the right person who you've been searching for ages.

wth? I got no idea what I am blabbing here. So, I think it's time to off now.
buhbye!