It's Sunday!
but I won't be able to go home until my finals end. aiks. Sad case.
I miss Seremban.omg.

Okay, I just broke what I promised, I don't know why I feel like blogging so badly at this miserable moment. Everything reminds me of you. How mean you see? I missed you again. wtf!I felt bad cause I felt betrayed. I know you won't even care to bother and, as if you will un how I feel? Sometimes, I think that, you don't need friend(s). You just need PEOPLE. Just anyone who can hang out along with you so that you don't feel bored or lonely indeed.
I know I'm kinda not deserve to comment anything about you, but I'm sorry. You just made me feel that way. I wondered, do you treat me as your friend before?? Perhaps, it's not fair to said that and yet, I just can't control what is bursting out from my heart. I tried, I tried so hard to go near you, tried to understand your every single thoughts , hope to be more closer to you yet, I came back with disappointment and scars. Alrite, I'm not blaming here, is just that I felt bad after I know you longer and longer. You're not that "good" as I thought,no matter in or out.fine. I'm so blind. Perhaps, I'm blind from not seeing your good ones that why I quit the game. =) Quit, thats what I can do. no doubt, no matter how hard I tried to pass through, you just put up a think wall. Althought there's scars and pain, but I've learnt a lesson. Never bang your self to the door that will never open for you. It's hurts, and you heart will never stops bleeding until it got numb. *set up the white flag

Okay, whatever,whatever..books are waiting for me. I guess I should stick by to econs =(
Another hectic week,
sayohnara!
XD
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我会学着放弃

Got no mood to blog and I got no I idea what to talk about.
will continue blogging after my finals
wish me luck kay? =(

Beside, I'm so into these songs. Try to add them in to your play list.


"Cold As You"

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you


You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
(Died for you)

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you


"Goodbye"

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
all you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
hum┅┅
There's nothing left to try
Through it's gonna hurt us both
THere's no other way than to say good-bye

还是谢谢你让我长大了

Hello, I had fly back to seremban just right afta moral presentation. ehhemmm...da presentation was "great" perhaps?? thanks to CHRIS! ishhh...but, it's kinda fun cause this was my first time to slap a person during presentation. OMG, I just can't stand it.So, without considering any kind of shit, I just slapped chirs.hahahahahahaha... You won't angry right? of course you won't, you're da one who burnt urself rite? XD Okay, if you get to read this, I wanna apologize le.eheh...sorry =(

Well, everything was fine today except for making my parents and friends to worried about me. Because of my phone! =( I skipped accounts and bst today, not because of my laziness, it's just that I slept without alarm...ishishhh... So, they thought I'm sick or whatever happen to me..hrmmm...sorry guys =)

my phone=my alarm clock

no phone? no alarm lo. =/

no alarm= overslept =p

I'm a good good girl today. Picked dad up from his office, he got shocked when I called him to come down from his office. His current reaction was like, "harrrr??you driving alone???can boh?" LoLx. I think his mood was not bad for today, so I told him about my plan after foundation. ermmm...I think he kinda listen to what i said, at least he din pour a pail of cold water to me?hahaha..okay, then he decided to watch "Poker King" but when we reach at the cinema, tickets are all sold out =-=''.So, mummy decided to eat, eat again! She wants KFC this time..er er erm..and dad agreed. Although the supper was super fattening but I enjoyed spending time with them. I just felt so warm and safe when I was with them. =) I've to thank god by giving me such a wonderful family members,my parents and bro. The movie will be pospone to tomorrow.hehehehe....exam around the coner,have to work freaking hard this time as this will be my last finals for foundation. Wish me luck k? lolx.

Between, I'm looking forward to my holidays! I'll be going Bali and China which I still don't really know which part of china.I think it must be those "sang ka la" one.lolx..but at least better than staying at home right? haha...

OKay, I've to stop here now. Off to bed soon.nights.

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Time for some little update about today. A meaningful out of meaningless posts =)

Today was just a so so day.
Went to midvalley with mum and bro, bought some stuff and have our lunch there. Walked around but nothing much to shop. I'm not really into it today and I don't know why. Then, mum drop me back to Subang.Before that, mum and bro went APT for hair cut while I went for manicure,french this time but it's really out of my expectation.Maybe my nails is not long enough.

Okay, things happened. My facial essence thinggy spilt out from the bottle, =( ishhhh...which means I have to spend 168 bucks to buy back another bottle.awwwww....heart broke! After finish unpack my stuff, I realized that my phone still inside the car. Somehow it's just too late for me to chase out because they've gone!! I got no idea what I should do then. So, quickly on my lappie to find sin ay on msn. She helped me to call mum and she said mummy ard reach Sg.Besi toll.ishhhh...so fast wehhh....The night without my phone, I feel so "unsafe" as I'm alone in the house.God,bless me kay?? I'm going back to Seremban tomorrow to get back my precious ph. OMG, phoneeeeeeee...I miss you so much =/

Hope tomorrow will be a better one for me. I meant my Monday. Monday oh monday.....

2.18 am

PeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeBoo! XD

Finally, I feel like posting. For the previous days, I got no idea why I'm not posting, but I enjoyed stalking on people's blog =p . Perhaps,I got nothing much to express; sad,happy,depressed, tired...whatever it is,life still moves on. I just realise that,the previous posts were so meaningless. Why I said so? because I think it's time to let things behind after holding on for so long. Keep repeat the same thoughts and feelings.errrrr...when I read back to the old one, I've been realise that I'm so dumb.errrr...is that the correct word to describe myself?"'DUMB" I think so. LoLx!

To be honest, I don't wanna gave up so easily, I tried so hard to stay but somehow time does not wait for us.One day, you will still need to get back to reality. Perhaps it's kinda hard, but we should learn. I learnt =D. At last, I'm walking out from the past.Memories are still past tenses which can only kept in a coner of your heart or maybe it has already been dumped? I choose to keep it somewhere else.

The day with or without you it's still a day I need to gone through,how silly if I'm always the sad one who bring down my day just like that? okay, "silly". "Silly" is the best to describe me. Now I'm awake in the middle of the night and I'm also awake from the dream that never comes true. Never back to that again. But I should sleep on my own sweet bed and dream about when can I be a billion or millionaire? =p hahahahaha... XD


ermm...okay, should end these craps now. I'm going to shop tomorrow! woooooohooooo....
will updated soon. The following posts will be a meaningful one. I promised =)
nights.