When I looked at myself,it really reflects her.Now only I know how she felt last time.The pain is like,so torturing,you can't really take a deep deep breath.I felt the same too.And thus,i hate it.I got no idea how to get rid of it and i dunno how to get rid of you.damn.I've tried to control myself,so hard so hard.But I failed to do so.sigh.When I looked into your eyes,i saw it was so empty.I wish i can be the one beside you when you need help,or even you don't need me,but i'm willing to sit silently beside you.As long as you need someone,i wish i can be dere for you.haha...stupiddddddd...My heart sinked.so pain so pain..sigh...everytime i told myself,this was the one last cry,just let me cry like wutever?then i will be fine,but this seem to be useless for me.and yes,i hate to pretend infront of you..really really hate to pretend....hate it....i'm useless,i can't do anything..hate myself..ishhhh...just get da damn effin feeling off then i can be back to normal.yes,i can.

Sorry

Do you ever think before why I will get so jealous?
I hate it,I hate myself.why I will be like that?that's totally like,not me?sigh..
I'm sorry.dunno why,da word that floating in my mind now is a sorry.
yeah..sorry about my behaviour...sorry about everything..sigh..i hate to be like dat,seriously,i duwanna be like dat..
i tried to walk in to your heart,i wanna know you more,i wanna care about you..but you always turned away from me.sigh.perhaps,i'm too much.why must i do dat?sighhh.
Remember I told you before if i did jealous,I'm da so called,fucking stupid one?yes,I am.I'm stupid to fall for you cause I know you will never bother.I'm getting worse day by day.god.please help!

Now I sitting all alone,wishing all my feeling was gone...

Gong Xi Gong Xi Ni Ah~
Gong Xi Gong Xi Ni
LoLx...really betahan myself sometimes..haha...
I'm okay today,kinda having those party mood but nothing was on..yeah,lets talk about my first day of Chinese New Year(chor yat)..ermmm..woke up early in da morning,get myself ready for granny's place before mum and dad came back from da temple.reach granny place ard 10,then kept on "gong xi fat chai" jer larhhh...what somore?lolx..took many 'big' ang pau from da grandparents and aunties..wow wow...haha...superb happy...lolx..After that,followed family back to my hometown,malacca.Reached aunt's ard noon then all da cousins decided to start gambling..wakaka..this time my luck not so bad,still can earn at least something?lolx,but dad was da big loser...nanananana...pity him...but nevermind lerhhh..just once a year..lost some money to da young one oso okay what..haha...It was nice to have a reunion though..haha..i enjoyed to be with them. =) At the night,all of us having dinner at "Bei Zhen" restaurant,and da young ones decide for midnight movie..haha..last year was kung fu dunk,how about this year?..erm..The Wedding Game.I would give 5 star to this movie cause it's so romantic...haha..yea,and almost made me cry..haha..but luckily i din if not da one sitting beside me for sure will laugh out loud.know who?nehhhh...dat guy who was so rich and ermm...look?haha..leng zai larhhh..lolx..if my cousin bro read this,he's gonna kill me..lolx..

Woke up early in da morning today and went for dim sum which I think it was sucks..ermmm..not nice at all except da "char siu bao".LoLx..I love 'char siu bao' larhhh...so nice..haha..Then,went for some relatives house and mum ,aunties chit-chatting dere..sien dao..plus,da danny showed me dunno what black magic...=-=' uncle,so lame lo..althought i dunno da trick..haha..but thanks for da entertainment.lolx..The last stop was my eldest aunt's house.Gamble again!wakakaka...you know,when we played til da last last round,I put all my money out,fuhhhh.....sai lang u know...guess wut card i got?an ace and queen,fuhhhhhh..double double!so syok mannnnnn...haha..and not bad,cousin helped me to bought lottery just now..haha..just to try my luck =p

kay,will update later..gonna prepare for dinner soon.=D
ciao

Happy Chinese New Year

What the hell with me now?sigh..why must I be like that?bitch?yes,perhaps,I'm.sigh.....I hate the feeling now.Seriously,I hate what I'm doing now but I don't know why I will react like that.When I thought of crying,someone just shouted at me and said "shutup".Good,I need someone to make me awake and get back to my own pace.but i dunno what the hell wrong with me.okay,just give me one last cry,and i will shut all of this.sigh..I regreted to fall for you.you don't even care right?so why must i be like that?I hate it.I choose to shout at you rather than treat you good cause i duwanna get in deeper.sighhhhhh.l..my god..i dunno y I'm crapping alot although today was da first day of chinese new year.
Well,happy chinese new year..all of you must be happie kay?don't be as useless as me.enjoy yourself to the max.take ang pau as many as you can..haha..I m going for midnight movie with all of the cousie later.hope i can enjoy?yea,I hope so?=-='

One last cry-Brian Mcknight

my shattered dreams and broken heart
are mending on the shelf
i saw you holding hands
standing close to someone else
now i sit all alone
wishing all my feeling was gone
i gave my best to you
nothing for me to do
but have one last cry
one last cry
before i leave it all behind
i've gotta put you out of my mind this time
i've gotta put you out of my mind for the very last time
stop living a life
be living a life
i guess i'm down
i guess i'm down
i guess i'm down to my last cry
i was here you were there
guess we never could agree
while the sun shines on you
i need some love to rain on me
still i sit all alone
wishing all my feeling was gone
gotta get over you
nothing for me to do
i know i gotta be strong
'cause around me life goes on
and on
and on
and on
i'm gonna dry my eyes
right after i have my one last cry

One last cry,before i leave it all behind...

"One last cry,before I leave it all behind..."
I love this song,thanks Marcell. =)
My tears is enough for you.I should draw a full stop now.I'm da one who stand dere all alone waiting for miracle,but nothing was happen.so....god,I guess you've gave me da signal?asking me not to cried for him?sigh.
regret,cause i don't have the chance to tell you how i felt before that,but I don't think you ever bother about it.Somehow,I should stand up and move on...cause....that's what we called 'life'?never mind.there's still another turning point dere..Life goes ups and downs,so why don't we move it in another way? yeah,I hope you can read this,I don't want you to avoid me cause we're friends rite?please don't let me feel awkward when we meet each other.I got no idea how to react.sigh.
In another turning point,I promise,I will be a better person cause I hate the ME now.I will learn to be strong and cry less..=)hrmmm..sorry for pouring out ,but this is da corner that I feel comfortable to spilt out everything.

I smiled because you're my friend and my eyes cried because that's all we ever be

Hey guys,how's your day?Mine was great =)
I'm kinda use to my life now,kinda happie cause i can know lots of new friends here.plus,my classmates were all so nice.haha..I enjoyed my class so much cause we're having fun all the time.like jokes are all around?my god,you can laugh til drop man.haha..
Overall,class ran as usual,and i have to wake up so early in the morning,sigh,dat torturing me so much larhhh..aduiii..but soon,I'm gonna move to subang. =p..ermm..only me..haha..oh yeah..i kinda love the tutors here.they so nice,seriously,they're all so kind..heeeeeeeee XD

My mood swings up and down,and I don't know why.Should I smile because you're my friend?or cry because that's all we ever be? sigh.i really don't know.If that's all we will be,I'm glad that i have a nice friend like you although you always said something that made me angry.haha..but i know you din mean it rite?hope what i think is rite.lolx.thanks for helping me so much.scarifying ur golden sleeping time to help me..haha..and I'm glad that ur dad did not support what you wanna do..feel bad rite?but is for your own good.just don't let him down cause he cares about you.opportunities is waiting for you out dere in the future so don't be rush. =)

arghhh..I have loads of homework and assignment waiting for me.omg..so that makes me crap less today.haha.nitex everyone.=p

下雨天

歌曲:下雨天

歌手:南拳妈妈

专辑:南拳妈妈新歌+精讯南搞小孩

作曲:张杰作词:张杰




下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

My DiNg dOng BeLL =)

Hey dere,I'm back..sorry for not posting this few days.WeLl,I had just enrolled in Taylor .ohh yeah..I'm currently taking business foundation(TBF) as I'm still so blur.haha.but,whatever it is,I'll try my best. =)

Monday

The 1st day to Taylor Business School.damn freaked out before that cause I don't know any people dere and everything seems to be strange to me.ermm..example,peoples?the environment?..but I'm okay now.=) okay,my 1st day,late for malaysian studies(Ms Alice came late so have to wait for her to give me the time table).Kai Lin brought me to the class but it's already over.wtf.So,have to wait for the next class which was English.At the mean time,I met up with yvonne at pyramid then we went for lunch at Kim Gary.After lunch,went back to Taylor for class.Hrmm..I was damn nervous at that time cause I don't know anyone dere..hrmm..Don't think i got into the right class.

Tuesday
haha..yvonne waited me at TBS for lunch and she gave me a big surprise.how niceeeeee..LoLx.=p We met up kent and meng for lunch and i saw darren too.haha.Later,koji joined us also.Damn happie to see them cause long time no see mahhh plus,long time no club.Lolx!.Went to pyramid after lunch.hrmmm..nothing much dere..went for nail art.wakaka..nice!nice!=D..get to knew a new friend dere.She's min yee,a very nice girl. =)

Wednesday?
erkz...please 4give me..i 4got what I did on that day..haha..class as normally?ohh..yeahh..went to see ms.tang to request for changing group.so,me and min yee is currently mixing at gruop 1.3.The people dere are nice though.ohh..yeahh..now i remember,Jason came to subang and we saw darren,kent,meng and his friends at pyramid when we were eating ice.James tagged along but he went back to inti cause ha still have class.haha


Thursday
Met new friends.They're all nice one in group 1.3.haha..plus,we had lots of fun during class.especially the guys named brandon and eu jin.they're such a joker..mygod,I laughed non-stop dere larhh..=p went lunch with yvonne,ai jeen and her friend,saw VU guy...lolx He's so damn yeng larhh..aiyoo..i wanna see him again..wakaka..After class,weelee came and fetch me to check out whether dere's still and rooms available.Thanks for helping so much =).back to seremban then.tired. =-='

Friday
met up with yvonne and amy for lunch at Zanmai after class..walked for while then back to seremban. =)

short and simple enough.Lolx.lazy to talked in details.haha...

wern-i miss you lots,thanks for listening to me when i need someone.you're always the one who gave me advice =) thanks.
yvonne-thanks for being my bestie,I found something that you gave to me when i was 17,hrmm..and i read it again and again.I'm glad that our friendship never change.thanks for everything.=)

fuhhhh...finally,finshed liaoooo..lolx..haha..datz all i wanna say =)

Seriously,
I MISS YOU
WTH I'M TALKING?
I'VE NO IDEA.
=-='
PLEASE, DON'T COME IN TO MY HEART.
=(

I'm such a lamer xp

MamAMiaAaaaaaaaAAaa!
lolx!
again,da lame me.
sigh,
I'm so freaking bored here so tell me why I wouldn't be a lamer?
arghHhh..anyway,don't feel like updating my blog this few days because I got nothing to scribble .My day was like so rot til I kept disturbing my bro until he feel like box me,rolling on the bed dreaming,crapped with mom,watching those old old dramas again and again?my god..can you guys just imagine how bored it is?hrmmm..I decided to go Sg Wang today with Wern but the plan had turned off due to my problem.so sorry wern,I promise I wun ffk next time.hehe..

Actually,there's still things dere waiting for me but I still couldn't settle.sigh.I don't know why.sigh. you know what,I heard a person said before, "you felt the sorrows because you had met the joy"..hrmmm..what do you think about ?but I guess I can understand what that fella trying to said..haha..haih..whatever larhh..you'll have to make decisions when come into problems,so,it's just depends on how you gonna choose..you choose the pathway and hopefully you wouldn't regret after sometimes.
WTH?I'm emo nowadays.hrmmm..I hope I can get rid of this kind of feeling cause I found it hard.So this is what we called "Life"?If there's problem,there will be a solution.ha,I always believe on that. ==' i'm so lame.haha

For those who're suffering like me,ermmm..not that suffer also actually.XD.anyway,for those who're having probs,just say "yo!fan nou jeh mah,sai mat gang ar!"(translate in Cantonese please)...LoLx!..okay okay..I know it's lame..but if you're laughing,it means my joke works,if you're not,nvm lorhh...i'll think a better one next time.haha..I'm currently watching "Journey to The West".LoLx!

kay,dats it,
stay tunned
and
nitex. =)

Exhausted =p

DoNg~
Hey dere,just got back from KL and I was exhausted..arghhh..but dunno why I still feel like posting.haha...okay,today was kinda fun though..went to One U with the monkeys(cwl,wwh,steve and edward) after Gary's class.Brought that monkey no.1 (cwl) to walked around the campus as this was his first time been to tarc..poor gold grass hair monkey,there were red patches coming out from his face and body.(din know that he couldn't stand the hot sun)..but later,back to normal again after he went into a cooler place.haha..da patches turned incredible red when he was walking under the sun.hrmmm..felt so sorry to him cause I'm the one who brought him walked until so far.(to TBR) =(

Later,went to meet up with steve and edward after I've done with weelee's hair.(LoLx!another sorry,haha...i made his hair became worst..erm..nolo..actually i thought it's okay de..i guess?but they said ugly wor... =-=').Meet up with wern when we reached One U,I'm so happie to hang round with her..hehe...I miss you alots.It has been sometimes since we din hang out together..haha..dere are more plans coming up =p.Then intro the monkeys to wern,erkzzz...haha..they're all joker!LoLx..Had luch at wong kok with the monkeys and wern.chit-chatted dere and the monekys became crazy again.haha..Yvonne came to join us after lunch.We shopped around.guess who's da best shopper?dEnG~ Mr.Steve.haha..We walked until where he bought until where(translate in Cantonese..haha).Wern joined her sister after that.Me and yvonne went for some drinks while the monkeys dunno lost where ad.haha..We meet them back at the armani shop..wow...one of our rich monkey bought armani shirt dere and at the same time, the sales gal irritated us so much. =-=' long story.haha..
went Chili's for dinner then ciaoz..haha..reach my place around 8pm and after packing was ard 8.30pm..rushing for the train and bus.finally got back to sbn ard 10.30pm.hrmmm..tired!

pictures time!

the 3 of them.Lolx! (ch,hk and ht)

me with ying yi =Dme and ginn =)

me ,saya and woxe,wwh,cwl

lolx >_<'

me and da monkey no.1.haha

me with leng lui yvonne =p

terbalik us.(edward,steve dan saya)

haha..

a new chapter for us =)

sleepy cousin =O

another funny one XD

Every Time We Touch

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me,
I still feel your touch in my dreams. (my dreams)
Forgive me my weakness,
but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle,
your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry. (I cry)
The good and the bad times,
we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.

Happy New Year!2009 =)

Hey everyone!
HappIeeeeee year 2009!
yAHooooOOOOOOooo!yeah,it's a brand new year,a new chapter for us.hehe..sO,don't worry and just be happiee kay?=)

Alright,since it's new chapter for me,I'm gonna use it wisely.ehhemmm..here's my new year resolutions.

dEnG DeNg~

1. I'm gonna work hard on my studies
2. I'm gonna love more =p
3. Don't be hurt and cry less than last year
4. I'm gonna choose on my way
5. I'm gonna lost more kilos (cwl,you watch out,i'm gonna use da excess fats to throw at your face.wakaka!)
6. I'm gonna be smarter.LoLx!
7. I'm gonna club more.(my gosh!XD)
8. I'm gonna love my friends more and more!
9. Don't be lazy
10. No delaying
11. Try to be more patient
12. Eat less(don't laugh arhhh!) =p
13. Work more(blahhhhh... )
14. I'm gonna travel alot

ermmm..actually still got many but hard to list down here..hehe..anyway..The most important is,I hope friends around me will always stay happie and keep smiling kayyy..
ohh yeah..to my DAC group16's buddies,wish we can do well in this coming finals kay..heeeeeee..my last final in tarc.I'm glad to know you guys.=) No,should say I'm lucky to know you guys. <3

okay,my new year eve was simple but fun though.At first our plan was count downing at bukit bintang then club maybe?,but the plan turned off for some reason.So,me,yvonne,steve,weelee and weng hong went hawaii for dinner..mygod..dunno why today we're like so crazy,maybe we all were in a pretty nice mood today.haha..crapped lots,talked lots,played?like mad.LoLx!
Then, we headed to jusco for cake..erm..dat cake looks ugly actually,but darn nice wehhh..hehe..
Followed weelee's car to chase that weng hong..my god...weng hong kept using some stupid reason to hide at home...==' but finally,he followed us.wakaka..ermmm..headed back home after fetching my bro.thanks to weelee.don't know why he had got a very good mood today.cause of his new hair??haha..anyway,glad to see u happieee...stay happie okay,don't always say:"don't care","don't know" and "no".don't let us down =)..haha..
We played true or dare afta eating and talking session.wahhh..we memang crazy plus lame..lame til pecah larhhhh...haha..will upload those pictures and video soon..haha
They ciao afta dat.

Lastly,I'm so happie tonight tho i'm a little moody just now...heeeeeee..since i know dere's no hope,so why should i?Hope you are happie with her..seriously,i hope you can love her more. =)

Thanks guys for giving me a happie night..no regret.wahaha..
thanks,yvonne,weng hong,weelee,steve and di chang for accompanying me in this eve.happie.=)
friends for life.no doubt.

happy NeW yEaR!!2009
wEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeEEeeEEEeeeeEEEEEeEE...=p