TAN LAY WERN :D

Hello look's who is this! :)

Listen to whateverrrr i want to tell you.

Seriously, from the bottom from my heart.

All of it.

Something i wanna tell you since 15453532 years ago
but i always missed the chance out, always running out of time.

But, now, i'm here!
SUPERB SURPRISE!


I know this week you went through hellotsa things bcs of him, college, family, friends and mean mean people around you but you have to be really really strong and have courage in yourself. Dear, the fight is not yet over and so keep on fighting and never ever give up. No matter in love, studies, your treatment, friends or family :) It's your final battle. After this, you can overcome anything. But bear something in mind. You just need to be strong and stand still on the ground, with your extremely stable feets :) Your life is not yet over. You're going to win this; you'll get better as time goes on. Never give up though you move through the pain, the suffering and the sickness; you'll make it out. You'll be alright, just stay strong.


I know whenever my cell starts to ring, i know you're feeling frustrated, cold and alone, losing everything which surrounds you. I know i know. I've been through feelings like that too. Life is pain i know. Darkness awaits you sometimes no matter you wish it comes to you/not. However, you must stay strong, bite your tongue, and move on. Life will be hard at times but look inside yourself and find the strength, hold you head high and hold on. This isnt the end of your journey :) and i know sometimes when you call me, i'm feeling really really sleepy but trust me, i paid fully attention with everything you said to me. EVERYTHING :)

I know sometimes you crying in the darkness and no one caring calling out, no one answering your wishes, no one just wanting to get along your ways or when you wondering do you actually belongs here with tears in eyes, or when you walking around trying to find a friend, or when you feel like getting angry or shout at some certain bitch but you controlled yourself just because i asked you to. I know it is real hard but this is life. Nevermind being heard bad words being whispered to you before because they're just trying to make you feel weak and make your temper up. They're all losers! You're still a human and all you need is just care&love from someone you really wish to but things are always not moving like what you expected. We need to fight to get something in order for us to appreciate it more what, no? You need what other humans need too. Just remember, you still have someone though whole world let you down :)



Heh, i love you.

MUACKSMUACKS!

Half dead =(

WILL UP to Date by tomorrow.

Stay tuned. =) 

Ass got stuck =/

Pikabooooooooooooo!!!

Alright,Sunday, what a beautiful sunday?haha...I'm glad dat mum and dad came over to visit me.Yeah,I LoVe them so much. Thanks for the love that dad and mom gave me,like always? =) So,I'm proud of being your daughter but don't think they will think so? ehhem, having a lousy daughter like me?,arghhh...always made them headache.Opss, I'm so sorry. I'm still happie. =) Well,followed them to pyramid and we had bahkuteh for our dinner.yummmmmmmy! =p

 

My day was not bad,just a lil miserable?but who cares.=-='...aiksssss..the pressure is getting more and more. Can i take a breath? erm...not at this time mayb.sigh. Assignments,tutorials,revision and mid term?sigh...arghhh,I'm much more worried and restless  than the others,as you all know,I got double work to do.sigh.my punishment.I deserved it. Yea, I know.ishhhh.... Regret lerrrrr...haih.kay,should finish my stuff and go to bed now. Uncle Andrew gonna screw me if I still late for tomorrow's econs class. 

kay.shitting off now.take care. =)

Pikaboooooooooo!

Cause Heaven Knows

I've a bad mood today. Sigh. =(

 Don't know why, I thought everything will be alright but I'm the one who feel so not okay? How am I gonna move on? I found it so tough and just stuck here like a piece of shit. Instead of blaming, I can't do anything. I miss you so much. I thought I can just move on very well with what I've planned. Yea, 1st day, it was okay and I'm so proud with it. Second day? alright,I can just stay tough and strong.3rd 4th day? just filled my time with loads of work. How about the following days? I don't know. How?how?how? what am I suppose to do? I'm so lost. 

Flashing back with the memories that we've gone through, tears rushing out without my control,but a smile still appearing on my face? I miss those day we hanging around, how we used to argued with each other, and many many things that we've done. I don't know how much I miss you,don't know how deep i had fall for you,don't know how a little thing of you will bring me down,don't know how useless I felt because I can't help when you fall,don't know how much should I do to cheer you up,don't know how to let you know that I just wanna be at your side when you feel your life's sucks. Just wanna try my best to play the role of being a friend.And that's more than enough.

The promised,yes,I did it. However,I'm the one who get so upset?hahahaha...funny uh? 

-.-''

Leavin- Plain White's T

You're doin' it again, you know

Sometimes I don't even know who you are

And I don't think you know how bad it hurts

'Cause you don't have to see the scars

If you knew how bad you made me feel

You'd never do a thing like this again

But if it's just a game you're playing

I don't think I'll make it to the end

I don't think I'd last that long

baby, I'm not that strong

So if you care about me you've gotta stop acting this way

Or I'm leavin' today

I'll say goodbye to my favorite face

Don't wanna go, but I just can't stay

And be treated, I won't be treated this way

At times I think I love you

And at times I know I've finally found the one

But it's times like this that make me feel

The game of love has only just begun

You know I'd never leave

But making threats to you could be the only way

I love everything about you

But when I'm in doubt then something's gotta change

Nice song =)

How am I gonna get over?

Ding Ding Ding...... ? Lolx..just simply? =p

Hey, guess what?I'm still at subang now..haha.. curious uh? xiao ern not going back to seremban?haha...yaya... don't know why I feel like staying here so much.. Don't feel like going back home cause dere's loads of work waiting for me here.sigh. Assignments popping out as many as they can?bad =/ yeah,dere's too many stuff waiting for me. So, what am i still doing here?  cause I miss blogging. "bodoh punyer anak!"..lolx..kena influence by da Jason too much..haha..okay...da anak bodoh is referring to me. =p Anyway,I'm addicted to pool nowadays.lolx.no idea why I'm so into it.haha 

Well, talked about today,it was so bad. I'm late for uncle Andrew's class and he said he's gonna shoot me with a warning letter if I'm still late next time..hrmmm..that's bad.=( I admit,it's my bloody fault.kay, so sorry. I kinda not in mood today, dunno why, stomach damn pain and today's lecture was bored.But hor... luckily,haha...cause "they" sitting behind me today..lolx..but "they" ran off during break.lolx.but still? =) Have been figuring so much,trying to find a best solution but it failed. how useless?hrmmm...bodoh punyer anak =p

I need time.Just time, time,time and time. I'll try my very best.

kay,assignments yelling at me now. Gonna start work.ishhh...

signing off.

ciao.

everyone, jia you! =)

你最近还好吗？

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that's what spinning in my mind now.

I can be totally stuck up because of this. how insane? =.='

fuhhh... hopefully, i can find a way out. =(

Well, my day was as usual. How about you ?

I'm superb tired this few days but it's fun though?haha..

Yesterday, class as usual and went to Madam Joyce for lunch during the break time. Know why I wanna mention about this?lolx.cause this was da funniest part. Wen Wen's classmates join our table too. That's why it's funny.haha..Siew Peng(not sure about the spelling) and Dickson? Lolx. They're superb good in talking craps man but I'm still the winner i guess?haha..kay,talked talked ,talked and talked. Craps lots of rubbish which made me laughed out loud.haha...I did enjoyed. =p After class,went back to take a quick nap, then the phone started to rang. Club9 the next. Don't know why this time Jason so pro.haha..drop spec liao..haha...and of course yvonne and Cath,fuhhh...the "Pool Queen" larh..LoLx. What's next again? kbox. =p . Sing sing sing sing sing sing!haha..again, we're like so used to it uh?lolx. Singing session end at 3am and dozed off at 4am. Missed the 8 am class this time =( . thought I can woke up by time but dunno why, I failed to do so this time.Luckily, still get to rush for the class at 10. Lunched after that,den followed by badminton session with kee ang,cs and wen wen.Fuhhh...syok man.. non-stop playing for 2 hours.so syok larhh...haha."thanks" to ang ang and cs =.=' made me run like mad.but still SYOK.haha... 

So, that's how I get to move on??How about you? My six sense told me you are not so okay? or perhaps I'm wrong? 

shitting off XD

It was just an excuse.how lame?

I felt so bad today,seriously,very very bad. Don't wonder what's happening,because da worst part was, nothing happened. =-=' I'm crazy,da worst person ever? yea. What I promised yesterday?and what have I done today?ishhhhhh!

What I planned to do,it looks good and smooth.But,don't know why I don't feel it right? i mean, it don't seems to turn on very well to me,not to say bad,it's just empty perhaps?. Every time I told myself not to repeat da same thing but da history is still repeating?ishhh..what I gonna do? I don't have the strength to stay away from what I actually have to control.no,should say, I MUST.sigh. It failed every time. just every time. Plus, the worst things was, I felt very satisfying after the history repeat. wtf? what's wrong with me now? i feel satisfy with what I'm not suppose to do? omg. gila punyer anak.

As usual, crazy-ing inside the class but today more worst =-=' ,betul betul gila larhhhhh....whatever den. I can sense things very well thats why I don't believe and after I found it i'm right,I felt so bad so bad. see larhhh...gila anot?superbbbb mad =(

I hope I can be as strong like my cctv,but I can't.it sucks uh? 

don't un what I'm talking?den don't read.but you already finish to what i wanna shit

*inside joke

=p

ciao.

CCTV

SLEEPLESS!

cause i don't dare to sleep =(

regret to watch dat movie...alamak..i din really watch it but still scare now,i think i watch da scariest part uh?

damn it =-='.

p/s:you will be fine,i guess? you're always da super women!!!nyek nyek nyek =p

苦茶

微微笑的看你 越是认真 就越让人 心疼 街头那盏路灯 仿佛在笑我 愚笨 没什么能做 但我比谁都真诚 泡一杯苦茶 陪伴你到夜深~ 你知不知道 你总有一种能可爱的独特  让我充满勇气 抵抗冬天的 寒冷~ 怎样做才会完美 像个男人 喝一杯苦茶温暖 你的体温 不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你) 在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意) 你不必问(不必问) 你也不必等(不必等) 这一刻 就值得爱到永恒 我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你) 在那之后你点头说我愿意 (我愿意) 想照顾你(照顾你) 想守护着你 (守护着你) 这一刻 只想把你抱紧 你知不知道你 也有一种很可爱的天真 大男孩的口吻 魅力加到一百分 怎样做才会完美 像个男人(像个男人) 喝一杯苦茶温暖 你的体温 不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你) 在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意) 你不必问(不必问) 你也不必等(不必等) 这一刻 就值得爱到永恒 我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你) 在那之后你点头说我愿意 (我愿意) 想照顾你(照顾你) 想守护着你 (守护着你) 这一刻 只想把你抱紧

Sparing for some time..

Sorry for letting my blog "sleeping" nowadays,don't really feel like blogging due to my "laziness" and I've got lots of stuff to do as well. But,I think that my day was really fine cause peoples who are awesome around me. Yea rite, I enjoyed every single moment with them as they really cheered me up and I know, I'm not alone. =) Basically, my sem 2 was great i guess? Started to turn into "working" mode but I do enjoyed. I love going to campus everyday although my time table was abit stuck?haha..anyways, I love the lectures and enjoy shooting the tutor very much. Mr. Andrew is a joker who makes my econs smells good?haha...

One thing I'm so glad of,I finally found "myself" =) . At least, I know what I want now and trying my best to reach it. Din regret to make this choices at first. I'm kinda proud of making this decision,never follows my dad asked me to,tried so hard to fight for what I want for 3 days 2 night?haha...and I finally walked to the way I want. =) I know things wasn't so good all the time,so what? =p

You know, looking far is better than looking forward.haha... Things will go wrong but also will turn out to be alrite,thats what I always believe. Everything will be a solution there,it's just depends how you gonna find it.haha...sorry, I blahh alot today but I don't know why. One thing I din change my mind was, my love still remains the same.I'm standing here waiting for you to look back. I don't dare to leave cause I'm afraid one day if you need me and I'm not dere for you. ?? questions surrounded all over my mind, I choose to put down and looking for other things I really need to do now.It's doesn't mean I've changed.

fuihhhh...done.ciaoz. =)

I'm crazy

Another week,

Class as usual but the lectures and tutors seems not to be so familiar.ermmm...some are funny? Lolx! I meant Mr Andrew. Don't know why, our class likes to shoot him..erm.. not all, just some of us. He looks so funny? just like a sisi-pot.haha... and the way he spoke really made us laugh out loud. Just like today(just describe roughly)

ME,Mr Andrew

You guys don't know the price for petrol?

go check now.

those who don't know then go to the patrol station and buy the petrol.

FOR?

I don't know.=-='

LoLx! the whole class laughed.then he started to said I "sengajer" talk like that. =-='

hello?he's the one who said something ridiculous first kay..of course la i said like that. If not so gila go buy patrol for wut?LoLx! he's so so so funny! between, I enjoy shooting him weh..and he took revenge as well?keep asking me to answer question. But i know it's for my own good. To be honest, the first impression he gave me was like...OMG?..then the second class I can't believe I enjoyed shooting him.hahahaha...it's fun to have this kind of tutor.oh yeah.he teaching us Economics 1 thats why he will ask that kind of question, and he loves crapping.omg...even worst than me..He kept saying dunno what moo moo cow toy??lol.

Anyway, I did enjoy the class.Have to work really hard this time..arghhhh... another burden coming.yes,but I deserved it cause this was my punishment for not working hard.sigh..regret..Just wanna get rid of those craps in my brain and stuck in with notes,practice and assignments and exams.Stop thinking rubbish and get back to what i suppose to be?I hope the distance won't get too far. 

Praying hard for edward .Hope he will be fine. Although I can't do anything at the mean time,but I'm still standing here for you. As long as I can know how's you situation,I'm glad enough. =) gambateh. 

It's your born day =)

Happy Belated Birthday to 

CHU WEE LEE!

Sorry for the late wishes..I meant, wish you at my blog.LoLx!

well,still the same thing. May all your dreams come true,my friend. =) 

happy happy always,

crazy crazy always,

taofu taofu always,

and alway always smileeeeeeeeeee!

your friend is always here =p

 

Back to the pace =)

Finally,

I can get back to the "ME". Lolx. Don't un?never mind. Who cares larh actually. Everyone have their own problems as long as they know how to stand up, so? Life always like that. 

One thing I really felt sorry was, I never have a chance to apologize to you by face to face. May I have this chance? I know it was already ruined by me and I can't to anything to save it. There's a wound. I know. No matter how I apologize, it can't works cause I already said it so harsh rite? I don't know what are you thinking and I won't ask anymore. Just let me sit beside you kay? I promised, I WON'T MAKE NOISE. I meant. i will zip my mouth until you ask me to talk larhhh... cause we are friends. Although you may think that we're not?but I don't care la.. once we're friends,always will be =)

I'm glad that finally i don't need to get drunk?Lolxxxxxx...but i can't wait to see those silly pics and video. Had lots of fun with you guys. Thanks for bringing me up. I love you guys to the max. really the max you know.haha..no doubt. =p

A person who plays an important role in my life.haha...I can almost spill everything out. I know I can't hide anything from you and you're just like a cctv or maybe some beta rays? scan everything in my mind. know what I'm doing? that's what edward cullen can do.so do you uh?haha...thanks for being at my side. I will grow to be a better person. I love you so much my CCTV! lolx =p   

LoL!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

SUM TIAN TUCK! =)

LOL,hope you like that cake.haha.

May all your wishes come true at you 19th birthday. =)

all the best kay..

崩溃了，怎么办？i

Hey,xiao ern is back.Yes, I meant the noisiest xiao ern that you guys knew.but..is like.. forever noisy uh? haha.. whatever larhh. who cares? =p

First of all, I would truly apologize to those who always stay by my side. I'm sorry. Sorry for letting you guys down. Sorry for being like an idiot these days. With those words that came out from me without any consideration. Sorry for my harshness, I know.  You guys saw the shameless side of mine but din turned away from me. Thanks. I appreciated lots. =) From now, I promised, I will be a better person..

My life going up side down and getting even worst? I did think that jumping into hell and perhaps it's da best way to release the pain but things really went wrong. I'm wrong. I don't wanna have this kind of attitude anymore but I just can't control myself sometimes... what am i gonna do now? As we always know, words that are good for us is always hurting ..I got hurt but I knew it's for my own good. Perhaps, I still need time to digest your words. I can't accept at first, and I hate to hear it after I've put in so much of effort. I know I'm behaving like so over- limit? Sorry. I hate what I said, it's so irritating and unpleasant plus I hate it also. Sorry, I should have self-control. Just give me a couple of days?months?years? to get over it..how long? i've got no idea.

Just wanna take a break.

am sorry, i said many many bad things which i think you don't really like to hear it. i've got no idea why i will say things without using da ass brain? sorry.

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mY BORN DAy?

Thanks guys.=)

The minute I'm helpless,I don't know what to do.I'm stuck here.

Thanks for cheering me up.I Love you guys,and sorry for behaving like this.I'm a sucker. Really really sucks like rubbish.Just dump me aside.Or just leave me alone.I'm glad that you guys din do so. Thanks for wiping off my tears,thanks for listening to me,thanks for cheering me up.I'm touched.So touched,you guys did alot for me,but I'm still useless like a piece of shit.

Thanks for staying by my side.Thanks for the wishes which made my heart feel warm.Thanks,other than that,i really don't know what to said.I shouldn't be like that.Sorry for showing my ugly face,stupid attitude and many many.I m seriously suck.

Thanks for giving me a big surprise when I wanna go out for a walk.Thanks for making my tears warm.Sorry for getting drunk like?dunno what shit.

thanks:

tan lay lay-haha..i love you

yvonne-I'm really glad that you have found your happiness.I'm so glad

jason-haha..thanks for singing for me

wonder foo- I love you.and da pikachu =p

sin ay-haha...thanks for everything and letting me know that I have such a great friend here

vincent-haha..thanks..jason secondary school friend?as if la..haha..

brenden-hey hey..my gift should bigger than da "pat bou doi" kay?=p

puisan-haha..thanks.club together next time.but dun get drunk

chris-haha..my big presie?nahh..i'm happy with your wish

cs-haha..thanks for the wish.although I'm growing to 19 but I'm not ah poh kay?

kee ang-haha...uncle seng?i'm addicted!

weiyoong-haha...thanks for letting those devils in and thanks for youR wish =)

3d3n-thanks.

jia kie-haha..thanks.glad that you remember my born day =)

hui chi-thankssss....I miss you.miss me?

Vicky-haha...thanks for your wish.club together?YEAH,i'm looking forward.=p

thanks to everyone.I love you guys. especially YOU!,yes you..

Ma zhi Yuan Cute uh?hahaha...i like it =)

blahhhh..xiao ern is just a useless fella..yes,i'm.But xiao ern always love you guys to the maxxx..thanks for everything..thanks for making me cried like a baby,i dunno how to walk alone.perhaps,you guys may become my light bulbs uh?leading my way.I'm tired.So tired to let you know that I actually love you so much.I don't how much I meant to u.perhaps,nothing?but somehow,I'm still here.

thanks guys.=)