我又在想你了。
他妈的！有时候真的很气自己。为什么会这样？
过了这么久，原来我还徘徊在那段回忆里。有的时候，觉得自己就被这些回忆里包围着，好像永远都走不出来。是我自己在钻牛角尖吗？什么都做了，可是还是没办法走进你的世界里。
当你正在往前走时我还在后面等你，不管自己有多伤但一步都不想离开。哪怕有一天当你回头时再也找不到我。
心里真的很矛盾，也很多的疑问。
我的天啊！
我该怎么办？
梦，就算再美却只是个梦。无论如何，我也得醒过来。
祝你幸福。
拜。
Friday, November 19, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
lovelydoveymummydaddy! =D
Yuppieeeee!
Finally I'm here to do some updates.
Since I am having a so called independent-study-week, ehhemmm...kononnyer larh study.hahaha.But, I will still try to touch some of them. *ehhem xD Not some of them, is ALL of them larh lazy bum me!
I've been slacking these few days as I was thinking that I should rest more and more and more. wth, are you sure I deserve to rest for so many days?LOL..and finally, I should start my so called independent study now! ishhh...but,but, but horr...okay, I will still try my best X.x"
Went to the SS2 night market AGAIN(I went there every week and even my independent study week?omg) cause the bro wants me and da parents to fetch him back to PJ.BUDAK NI MANJA BETUL! ishhh..
Never mind, here brings me a good news..ermmm..actually is more than that!teheeeeeeee! I am super happie that my dad finally bought me a car. YAY! tho it's a used car, but...I'm so glad that you made an effort to find a nice nice car for me. FYI, I am so surprise that he actually find all those cars via the internet and newspapers, copied down every single details on the paper and bring us to many places just to find a good one for me. Thanks dad. =D
Another thing that made me touched of is the conversation in the car when I was driving them back to Seremban.
D: So, when are you going to graduate?
XE: 2012 I guess?
D: Are you going to England then?
* mummy shaking head
XE: ......
D: Are your friends going?
XE: yes yes yes! Many of my friends are going ;(
D: Okay, you better go with your friends then at least you all can take care of each other and finish your final year there.
M:No need to go larh, she can finish her course in Malaysia and why not study here?
XE: Can get a difference experiences mah... @.@"
D: Nevermind, she can goes as long as she wants to study then even if I pawn all my properties(hing kah dong chan?) I will also let her study. Don't worry =)
*touched! T.T
I was like....WTH!
I don't know what made me speechless at that moment, but those words melt my heart.
I was thinking how would I repay them in the future, but I think the only way is to make them proud of having this daughter =D
Thanks daddy and mummy, without them I am not who I am now. Thanks for giving me my 'dream'
loves.
=D
Sunday, November 7, 2010
我喜欢，不，我爱
ello!
♥
Another week has gone and here comes a brand new week! =D
I always like to starts something with a new week which I don't know why. Always told myself, if my goal for last week has failed, never mind, here comes a brand new week which is fresh and new. As long as I din't give up, I could still carry on and I believe one day it would be real. Failing is sad, but giving up is the worst. So, lets start all over again. =)
Oh yeah. I think it's time to update about previous week as there's so many birthday celebration went on XD
HAPPY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BUDDY, YVONNE CHEOK and SHIH YIAN. ALSO, TO MY BRATHA!
♥♥♥
Lets start with this long old good friend of mine. I knew her since secondary school and we had been through alot of ups and downs since high school. I am glad that after so many years you had became one of the pillars in my life. Hope you love the presie and we actually failed to give you a surprise rite? =(
Our friendship will never change as we have to let our dreams and promises come true in the future. Love ya very muchie!
♥Me ♥ Yvonne♥ 30/10
Here comes the brother. Well, he is 18 this year and i hope that he can be more mature than last time. *ehhemm
We never say I Love to you each other before but I know you show it in some kind of way which I can feel it. He is my one and only brother, of course he should be the sibling I love the most. 生日快乐啦！老弟
♥♥♥ 1/11
HAHAHAHAHAHA! The last birthday girl.
She is actually a nice friend who I knew since my foundation year. I am happy that we can still be at the same class together during our degree. Tho we just knew each other not long..ermmm...but I consider quite long cause it's almost 2 years! hehehe...I am so glad that met a friend like you!
HAPPY SWEET 19th
♥
Hope you like the presie and the surprise!
♥♥♥4/11
Everybody meant something to us ,don't you think so? They play a role which we doesn't realize that made you growth up in every single stage of our life.
I'm so glad that god gave me fate to met all the people no matter they are staying with me or just passer by because their footprint colored my plain white piece of paper .
Thanks guys
♥
Saturday, October 23, 2010
我的未来不是梦
一到了深夜，人总是会去想很多。。。
我觉得，我是一个很不实际的人。往往会陶醉在一些在现实生活中不会发生的事情，但还会在期待着。
你知道吗？
在一线希望里，埋藏着很多的可能性。有的时候，你抱着期待和希望去等待一些事情，你不会知道接下来会怎样，但往往会发生令你意想不到的。是好的，还是坏的，我们都得去接受，不是吗？这就是我们所说的“人生”。
我觉得，虽然他们都说，“人生，就像一场戏”，但它并不是。
戏，是导演拍的，但我们的人生是靠我们自己演的。在戏里，我们通常都会知道最后的结局，可是我们演的人生就要靠自己去努力编制。到最后，是戏剧还是悲剧？自己才知道。
在这几个礼拜里，我想了很多。觉得，该是时候选择自己的路了，也不能老是靠着爸妈来过生活。他们也总有把养育孩子的负担放下的一天吧，我真的不想成为他们那沉重负担。
我，真的能独立去面对未来吗？
虽然有点害怕，
但，
我很期待！
很想看看自己的结局 =)
到底，我的未来会是怎样呢？
那，就要问自己咯。（每一天，都在问。。。）
这就是我刚看完的韩剧， 《韩版恶作剧之吻》。
哈哈！还真的蛮好看的。也许，真的很羡慕那女主角吧，到最后她那经历过千辛万苦的单恋终于开花结果了。相信，有看过《恶作剧之吻》的人都知道戏里的故事吧！哈哈。。
我都说我不切实际的啦！现在信了吧。。。
因为，这就是戏里和人现实中的不同吧。。。
而我们往往就是那么希望着当戏里的主角。。。
也许，这也是我喜欢看偶像剧的原因。
现实里根本不能发生的桥段，却还是那么期待着拥有最完美的那段爱情。。。
我觉得，我是一个很不实际的人。往往会陶醉在一些在现实生活中不会发生的事情，但还会在期待着。
你知道吗？
在一线希望里，埋藏着很多的可能性。有的时候，你抱着期待和希望去等待一些事情，你不会知道接下来会怎样，但往往会发生令你意想不到的。是好的，还是坏的，我们都得去接受，不是吗？这就是我们所说的“人生”。
我觉得，虽然他们都说，“人生，就像一场戏”，但它并不是。
戏，是导演拍的，但我们的人生是靠我们自己演的。在戏里，我们通常都会知道最后的结局，可是我们演的人生就要靠自己去努力编制。到最后，是戏剧还是悲剧？自己才知道。
在这几个礼拜里，我想了很多。觉得，该是时候选择自己的路了，也不能老是靠着爸妈来过生活。他们也总有把养育孩子的负担放下的一天吧，我真的不想成为他们那沉重负担。
我，真的能独立去面对未来吗？
虽然有点害怕，
但，
我很期待！
很想看看自己的结局 =)
到底，我的未来会是怎样呢？
那，就要问自己咯。（每一天，都在问。。。）
这就是我刚看完的韩剧， 《韩版恶作剧之吻》。
哈哈！还真的蛮好看的。也许，真的很羡慕那女主角吧，到最后她那经历过千辛万苦的单恋终于开花结果了。相信，有看过《恶作剧之吻》的人都知道戏里的故事吧！哈哈。。
我都说我不切实际的啦！现在信了吧。。。
因为，这就是戏里和人现实中的不同吧。。。
而我们往往就是那么希望着当戏里的主角。。。
也许，这也是我喜欢看偶像剧的原因。
现实里根本不能发生的桥段，却还是那么期待着拥有最完美的那段爱情。。。
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Truth
HELLO!!
=D
=D
I just realized that 24hours a day is actually not enough for me! Saturday is gonna end soon and Sunday is saying Hi to me which means my beautiful weekend is also ending as well.In fact, I still got alot to catchup with my to-do list. =P
So yeah, I started to blog again and I am pretty sure I will always be here.Hahaha...okay, I know it sounds like I am so desperate to do the posting, job after dumping my poor little bloggie for so long ,but at least I wanted to blog so badly at this time. LOL!
Okay, lets begin this with my uni first. The new semester started and I am no longer a year one student in uni anymore. Opsss....which means..my work loads will become heavier in year two plus, my time table was sucks! It doesn't sounds good rite? haha...By the way, this is a new chapter for me after a long long break and I'm glad to see all of my uni friends again as I miss them so much during the holidays. Having our gossip session again when we met up together and the hanging out was just so fun and great. =D
Well, not forgetting the yam cha session with my banana buddy! Tan lay wern, I know you are superb free enough to translate sentence by sentence since your break is still on.wahahahahaha...san fu mou? nola...I know you enjoy reading the previous post. Loveeeeeeeeee you very muchie la XD I hope my banana buddy can always be my one and only banana buddy.haha...un me not? LOL. only the banana buddy will un how happy am I when I get to met her after 1887218391283192 months? not that long actually but just wanna emphasize that we actually should meet up more! ngek ngek ngek! Anyways, all the best for you larh :D
Living on the earth for 20 years,
Sometimes,I think that staying alive is hard.
Perhaps, I was that joker who made my road tough.
sucha fool?
buhbye
So yeah, I started to blog again and I am pretty sure I will always be here.Hahaha...okay, I know it sounds like I am so desperate to do the posting, job after dumping my poor little bloggie for so long ,but at least I wanted to blog so badly at this time. LOL!
Okay, lets begin this with my uni first. The new semester started and I am no longer a year one student in uni anymore. Opsss....which means..my work loads will become heavier in year two plus, my time table was sucks! It doesn't sounds good rite? haha...By the way, this is a new chapter for me after a long long break and I'm glad to see all of my uni friends again as I miss them so much during the holidays. Having our gossip session again when we met up together and the hanging out was just so fun and great. =D
Well, not forgetting the yam cha session with my banana buddy! Tan lay wern, I know you are superb free enough to translate sentence by sentence since your break is still on.wahahahahaha...san fu mou? nola...I know you enjoy reading the previous post. Loveeeeeeeeee you very muchie la XD I hope my banana buddy can always be my one and only banana buddy.haha...un me not? LOL. only the banana buddy will un how happy am I when I get to met her after 1887218391283192 months? not that long actually but just wanna emphasize that we actually should meet up more! ngek ngek ngek! Anyways, all the best for you larh :D
Living on the earth for 20 years,
Sometimes,I think that staying alive is hard.
Perhaps, I was that joker who made my road tough.
sucha fool?
buhbye
Friday, October 15, 2010
庆幸
<3 <3 <3
对，我又回到了我的部落格。
真的好久没有上来写一写了，不知道今天那来的兴致。可能是因为对经历过的种种事情，有感而发吧。看见我今晚的标题吗？哈哈。。。
为什么会说，“庆幸”呢？对，我就是觉得自己很庆幸因为我有一位无可挑剔的知己。有些人说，朋友不用很多，真心的，一个就够了。我也很赞同这句话。因为，朋友之中，上天赐给了我一位很好的知己。=D 她，让我学会了很多，明白了什么是人生，改变了我的人生观。真的非常感谢她在我的人生道路上一路陪我走到今天。从她身上，我学会了什么是坚强，无论发生了什么事，她都会让我从谷底慢慢地学会爬起来。也许是她经历了很多吧，总觉得她不怕风吹雨打，能够很坚强地去面对任何事。有时，会觉得自己很懦弱，因为我看见了她那打不死的精神。哪怕什么起起伏伏，她都会把它看成是人生在道路上学习的过程。真的佩服，佩服。。。
这几年来，我相信我们都经历过很多很多的事情，看着彼此有笑，又哭，又苦，又甜，相信也体会了很多。很庆幸的，她陪我度过了这么多，教会了我这么多。。。真的很谢谢你。虽然我这位知己是位“香蕉人”，但她很鬼聪明，我觉得她大概知道我在写着她吧！谢啦！哈哈。。
每次，和她聊天时，心里的烦恼就很像那拉的很紧绷的塑胶带，忽然收束了。人也轻松了很多，心情也理所当然的好了起来。大概是听了她那番话候，再想一想，自然地，问题就迎刃而解。在她面前，不必演示，不必伪装，卸下面具，可以毫无保留地畅谈。可以做会自己
=)
不知道今天错了那根筋，就是很想把这份心情在这里告诉朋友也好，经过的路人也好，总之是谁都无所谓。想告诉大家我对这位知己的感激与安慰。相信路人甲或路人乙都有过这种心情吧。今晚，本人就忽然觉得其实天塌下来也没有什么大不了，因为没什么事情是解决不了的。即使，现在你可能觉得是世界末日的来临，但明天又有可能被上帝拯救了呢？没有人会知道。原来，我活了二十岁，才领略了“船到桥头自然直”的这个道理。应该还不算太迟吧？
未来，还有更多要去学习的事物，那又为何绕着自己的世界里打转呢？人生还有很漫长，但并没有太多的时间等着我们。
珍惜，现在。盼望，未来。抛弃，憎恨。
懂的爱惜身边人，把美好的回忆都放进心里的那个“相簿”里。
真的好久没有上来写一写了，不知道今天那来的兴致。可能是因为对经历过的种种事情，有感而发吧。看见我今晚的标题吗？哈哈。。。
为什么会说，“庆幸”呢？对，我就是觉得自己很庆幸因为我有一位无可挑剔的知己。有些人说，朋友不用很多，真心的，一个就够了。我也很赞同这句话。因为，朋友之中，上天赐给了我一位很好的知己。=D 她，让我学会了很多，明白了什么是人生，改变了我的人生观。真的非常感谢她在我的人生道路上一路陪我走到今天。从她身上，我学会了什么是坚强，无论发生了什么事，她都会让我从谷底慢慢地学会爬起来。也许是她经历了很多吧，总觉得她不怕风吹雨打，能够很坚强地去面对任何事。有时，会觉得自己很懦弱，因为我看见了她那打不死的精神。哪怕什么起起伏伏，她都会把它看成是人生在道路上学习的过程。真的佩服，佩服。。。
这几年来，我相信我们都经历过很多很多的事情，看着彼此有笑，又哭，又苦，又甜，相信也体会了很多。很庆幸的，她陪我度过了这么多，教会了我这么多。。。真的很谢谢你。虽然我这位知己是位“香蕉人”，但她很鬼聪明，我觉得她大概知道我在写着她吧！谢啦！哈哈。。
每次，和她聊天时，心里的烦恼就很像那拉的很紧绷的塑胶带，忽然收束了。人也轻松了很多，心情也理所当然的好了起来。大概是听了她那番话候，再想一想，自然地，问题就迎刃而解。在她面前，不必演示，不必伪装，卸下面具，可以毫无保留地畅谈。可以做会自己
=)
不知道今天错了那根筋，就是很想把这份心情在这里告诉朋友也好，经过的路人也好，总之是谁都无所谓。想告诉大家我对这位知己的感激与安慰。相信路人甲或路人乙都有过这种心情吧。今晚，本人就忽然觉得其实天塌下来也没有什么大不了，因为没什么事情是解决不了的。即使，现在你可能觉得是世界末日的来临，但明天又有可能被上帝拯救了呢？没有人会知道。原来，我活了二十岁，才领略了“船到桥头自然直”的这个道理。应该还不算太迟吧？
未来，还有更多要去学习的事物，那又为何绕着自己的世界里打转呢？人生还有很漫长，但并没有太多的时间等着我们。
珍惜，现在。盼望，未来。抛弃，憎恨。
懂的爱惜身边人，把美好的回忆都放进心里的那个“相簿”里。
Monday, September 13, 2010
昨晚，又是一个很讽刺的夜晚。不知道该高兴还是替自己悲哀。。。最后，还是忍不住地哭了。
反反复复，也习惯了。才发现，原来自己还是那么地放不开。整整一年多了，我。。。还爱你。好几次，有一种莫名的冲动，很想告诉他心里的感觉，但，还是没有拿出勇气来。很想很想念你带给我的回忆，即使是回忆，无论开心的，伤心的。。。都很怀念。还以为时间可能可以治疗那道曾经被你留下的伤痕，潇洒地走出你的世界。但最后，你还是回到了我的世界。有时，我们以为可以放弃的，就往往是你最刻苦铭心的。很多人都劝我放弃，但他在我心里还是留了一个无可取代的位子。人的心，很复杂，有时叫你放弃，有时叫你坚持，有时叫你忍耐。。。所以，我真的不懂我的心，唯一知道的是，我还爱他。天啊。。。那几时才可以才可以有个结局？？
昨晚，当我你告诉我时，还真的。。。有够。。难受。。。
明明是我想知道的但又最害怕知道的。。。做人真矛盾。。。
下一步，我该怎么办呢？
反反复复，也习惯了。才发现，原来自己还是那么地放不开。整整一年多了，我。。。还爱你。好几次，有一种莫名的冲动，很想告诉他心里的感觉，但，还是没有拿出勇气来。很想很想念你带给我的回忆，即使是回忆，无论开心的，伤心的。。。都很怀念。还以为时间可能可以治疗那道曾经被你留下的伤痕，潇洒地走出你的世界。但最后，你还是回到了我的世界。有时，我们以为可以放弃的，就往往是你最刻苦铭心的。很多人都劝我放弃，但他在我心里还是留了一个无可取代的位子。人的心，很复杂，有时叫你放弃，有时叫你坚持，有时叫你忍耐。。。所以，我真的不懂我的心，唯一知道的是，我还爱他。天啊。。。那几时才可以才可以有个结局？？
昨晚，当我你告诉我时，还真的。。。有够。。难受。。。
明明是我想知道的但又最害怕知道的。。。做人真矛盾。。。
下一步，我该怎么办呢？
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
失败
对，又到了我心情不太好的时候。。
很难过，因为考试考不好。
有的人会想，其实也没什么大不了，但对我而言的确是很重要。
我很失望，很不开心，因为我觉得我辜负了那辛苦为了赚钱养家的父母。
爸，妈，真的很对不起。我答应，不会再有下一次。
其实，刚看到成绩的时候整个人都崩溃了。。眼泪也不由自主地掉下来。。很失败吧？
对，我就是那么的懦弱。又怎样？我也是人嘛。。
很勤兴的是，原来身边还有很多朋友的支持和关心。。很高兴有你们在我身边。。
我很努力地安慰自己，和自己说，失败其实也没什么大不了的啊。。只能再爬起来也是一个新的开始。记得。爸爸曾经告诉过我，如果你从一开始就想着失败，那就注定会失败。想了一想，真的有点道理。重点是，不要让恐惧打败自己。他讲得也对，失败了可以再来。都活了二十年了，酱简单的道理也因该要接受和明白吧。
好，再次的机会只好把握，决不放弃，否则就对不起自己。
今天的心情真差！！
明天会更好吧？
很难过，因为考试考不好。
有的人会想，其实也没什么大不了，但对我而言的确是很重要。
我很失望，很不开心，因为我觉得我辜负了那辛苦为了赚钱养家的父母。
爸，妈，真的很对不起。我答应，不会再有下一次。
其实，刚看到成绩的时候整个人都崩溃了。。眼泪也不由自主地掉下来。。很失败吧？
对，我就是那么的懦弱。又怎样？我也是人嘛。。
很勤兴的是，原来身边还有很多朋友的支持和关心。。很高兴有你们在我身边。。
我很努力地安慰自己，和自己说，失败其实也没什么大不了的啊。。只能再爬起来也是一个新的开始。记得。爸爸曾经告诉过我，如果你从一开始就想着失败，那就注定会失败。想了一想，真的有点道理。重点是，不要让恐惧打败自己。他讲得也对，失败了可以再来。都活了二十年了，酱简单的道理也因该要接受和明白吧。
好，再次的机会只好把握，决不放弃，否则就对不起自己。
今天的心情真差！！
明天会更好吧？
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Humans are meant to be selfish?
Told cha I will update my blog from now
and, yes.
I'm here again.
Guess what?
I'm posting this in the campus's library now.
Sigh.
My final exam is next week and I feel my brain still stuck with grass instead of what I have read.
How? =(
This is the first time my tears kept dropping when I was doing my management accounting.arghhhh!!! wth wrong with me ahh??
idk la.
Lets count down til my finals say bye-bye to me.
urmmmm...
8 days?
yaya...1 week and 1 freaking day. =)
God, please please please bless me
.............................................................
Okay, I guess I should stop my craps and back to the books.
=(
and, yes.
I'm here again.
Guess what?
I'm posting this in the campus's library now.
Sigh.
My final exam is next week and I feel my brain still stuck with grass instead of what I have read.
How? =(
This is the first time my tears kept dropping when I was doing my management accounting.arghhhh!!! wth wrong with me ahh??
idk la.
Lets count down til my finals say bye-bye to me.
urmmmm...
8 days?
yaya...1 week and 1 freaking day. =)
God, please please please bless me
.............................................................
Okay, I guess I should stop my craps and back to the books.
=(
Friday, July 2, 2010
Confused
Another post of the day.
Hrmmmm...I feel like blogging today.Idk why.
Nvm, perhaps I'm just so stressed out with the mountain of chapters which I haven touch yet.
How???
Study lorh
...............
But why I'm still slacking here?
hrmmmmmm....
爱和恨难道就是在那一线之差吗？
我很害怕。。。。
再回到那一直期待你会回头看我的时候，
因为，我不想再等待。
等待，真的很漫长，很无奈。。
因为没有期限的等待真的很傻！
也许，我还爱着你的那么一点点。。
就一点点。
不想再回头看到自己的愚蠢，
前面，还有一道引向你前进的一道光。
Hahahahaha....
I'm just so lame. =)
Hrmmmm...I feel like blogging today.Idk why.
Nvm, perhaps I'm just so stressed out with the mountain of chapters which I haven touch yet.
How???
Study lorh
...............
But why I'm still slacking here?
hrmmmmmm....
爱和恨难道就是在那一线之差吗？
我很害怕。。。。
再回到那一直期待你会回头看我的时候，
因为，我不想再等待。
等待，真的很漫长，很无奈。。
因为没有期限的等待真的很傻！
也许，我还爱着你的那么一点点。。
就一点点。
不想再回头看到自己的愚蠢，
前面，还有一道引向你前进的一道光。
Hahahahaha....
I'm just so lame. =)
Back. 2 July 2010
OmahhhhhhgoDDDDD!!
I've left my blog since March?? wtfbbq =P
And now, I am back =)
The reason why I am back is actually no reason. It is just due to my lameness..ehhermm...
and of course I felt so sorry with my poor little bloggie. *sobsob
Okay, from now onwards,I promise to update when I'm free kay??
Ahhhhahhahahhaha....
Serious larhh...I will post something when I'm really free!
My finals are coming
.......
Free??
errrr....
I will still blog something! ahahaah..
at least...something rite?
It's been so long since I din blog,
ehhermm...but my life is going on as usual.
Tho there's happenings out there...but, it's already a past tense rite?
Everyone will have to move on and move on...move until the day that u have to sit on the wheel chair larh i guess???
I'm so sorry, please forgive my fai-ness
Time flies, and everything changed. People? Place?Me?
ermm...I got no idea actually.
But I'm glad that those who are always here for me are still here for me =))
Thankyouuuuuuuuu!!!!
But....for those who should get lost in my life had just gone.
ahahahaha...
and those who suppose to be here had just flied!!!
if you're get to read this,
Please please stay alive til you back to M'sia please....
You're a strong plant ? rite??
==''
Okay, it's time to open my IMA book. =(
buhbey!
Lastly, Happie birthday KAR YAN!
Have a blast =)
I've left my blog since March?? wtfbbq =P
And now, I am back =)
The reason why I am back is actually no reason. It is just due to my lameness..ehhermm...
and of course I felt so sorry with my poor little bloggie. *sobsob
Okay, from now onwards,I promise to update when I'm free kay??
Ahhhhahhahahhaha....
Serious larhh...I will post something when I'm really free!
My finals are coming
.......
Free??
errrr....
I will still blog something! ahahaah..
at least...something rite?
It's been so long since I din blog,
ehhermm...but my life is going on as usual.
Tho there's happenings out there...but, it's already a past tense rite?
Everyone will have to move on and move on...move until the day that u have to sit on the wheel chair larh i guess???
I'm so sorry, please forgive my fai-ness
Time flies, and everything changed. People? Place?Me?
ermm...I got no idea actually.
But I'm glad that those who are always here for me are still here for me =))
Thankyouuuuuuuuu!!!!
But....for those who should get lost in my life had just gone.
ahahahaha...
and those who suppose to be here had just flied!!!
if you're get to read this,
Please please stay alive til you back to M'sia please....
You're a strong plant ? rite??
==''
Okay, it's time to open my IMA book. =(
buhbey!
Lastly, Happie birthday KAR YAN!
Have a blast =)
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Only heaven knows
Time flies,
It's march now but what happened in the past is still fresh in my mind.
I missed grandpa. Whenever I thought of him, my tears rushing out without my control. I can always remember scene by scene, the night he left us,how I used to hug my family tightly, the days when he's admitting to hospital,lying on the bed struggling and trying to breath so hard just to stay here with us. And now you left us with lots and lots of memory. If he's still here, I promise and swear that I will spend more time with him, I wanna talk to him,I wanna let him knows that I care about him....but everything is too late. I know regretting is meaningless but I did. Whenever I saw people's grandpa, I wish that he's still with us...he made me feel proud because he is the best Ah gong i ever had, the great man in my entire life
You're always in my heart
I Love you, gong gong =D
It's march now but what happened in the past is still fresh in my mind.
I missed grandpa. Whenever I thought of him, my tears rushing out without my control. I can always remember scene by scene, the night he left us,how I used to hug my family tightly, the days when he's admitting to hospital,lying on the bed struggling and trying to breath so hard just to stay here with us. And now you left us with lots and lots of memory. If he's still here, I promise and swear that I will spend more time with him, I wanna talk to him,I wanna let him knows that I care about him....but everything is too late. I know regretting is meaningless but I did. Whenever I saw people's grandpa, I wish that he's still with us...he made me feel proud because he is the best Ah gong i ever had, the great man in my entire life
You're always in my heart
I Love you, gong gong =D
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Been here all along so why can't you see?
Happy CNY!
+
Happy belated valentine!
(you can just ignore it if you're single cause it's kinda meaningless to me too.LoLx!)
How's your Chinese New Year so far? mine was great =D
But what we did more or less was da same rite?
gambling,visiting,gathering,drinking,gossiping, movie?ktv? i missed da two actually cause da cinemas and green box in seremban was SO FULL!
Anyways, I enjoyed alot during cny.The most precious moment is, when you get to be with da family&friends. Although there's still some emo-ing time, but who cares? life is like that. I'll just try my best to ignore. :) This new year was really great for me i guess? I gain what I lost.happy rite?yes, I really appreciate to meet those who's long lost in my life and they come back again. =D thanks.
Hope 2010 will be a great year for me?
i'm still waiting for the last bottle to come.
bb.
+
Happy belated valentine!
(you can just ignore it if you're single cause it's kinda meaningless to me too.LoLx!)
How's your Chinese New Year so far? mine was great =D
But what we did more or less was da same rite?
gambling,visiting,gathering,drinking,gossiping, movie?ktv? i missed da two actually cause da cinemas and green box in seremban was SO FULL!
Anyways, I enjoyed alot during cny.The most precious moment is, when you get to be with da family&friends. Although there's still some emo-ing time, but who cares? life is like that. I'll just try my best to ignore. :) This new year was really great for me i guess? I gain what I lost.happy rite?yes, I really appreciate to meet those who's long lost in my life and they come back again. =D thanks.
Hope 2010 will be a great year for me?
i'm still waiting for the last bottle to come.
bb.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
爱，只有简单笔画却比想像复杂
Back!back!back!
kxe is back =D
Chinese New Year is coming soon....err...but I haven get any clothes yet.m gonna spend more and more this week before the cny.hrmmmm...a list of stuff waiting for me.
hair treatment(RM130) should I do it?hrmmm...
heading to Time Square.hope i can spend some money there larh..haha
pedi+manicure. an appointment this Thursday =p I think m trying 3D this time.Should i?
an appointment with Chloe =)
party this wed?dunno yet >.<'' seriously need some fun man...i duwanna rot at home.So guys,plan something ya.haha That's all i think??er er...but i think that is some more... can't remember now.haha Went for a hair cut today. Thanks to Louis.hehehe...he helped me to cut da fake hair for free..hahaha...so happy man...thanks thanks. =D Not only my fake hair, my original hair also..LoLx.hahaha..should I dyed it?hrmmmm..
Going back to Malacca for reunion dinner this year.Hoping that no dramas happen?=-='' hope so larh....I'm gonna stuck my ear with cotton buds and cover my eyes if that really happen.aiyoyoooo.. Okay, enough for that. I'm stuck with many assignments and homework now.aiks aiks...hectic! will update soon. stay tunned.
kxe is back =D
Chinese New Year is coming soon....err...but I haven get any clothes yet.m gonna spend more and more this week before the cny.hrmmmm...a list of stuff waiting for me.
hair treatment(RM130) should I do it?hrmmm...
heading to Time Square.hope i can spend some money there larh..haha
pedi+manicure. an appointment this Thursday =p I think m trying 3D this time.Should i?
an appointment with Chloe =)
party this wed?dunno yet >.<'' seriously need some fun man...i duwanna rot at home.So guys,plan something ya.haha That's all i think??er er...but i think that is some more... can't remember now.haha Went for a hair cut today. Thanks to Louis.hehehe...he helped me to cut da fake hair for free..hahaha...so happy man...thanks thanks. =D Not only my fake hair, my original hair also..LoLx.hahaha..should I dyed it?hrmmmm..
Going back to Malacca for reunion dinner this year.Hoping that no dramas happen?=-='' hope so larh....I'm gonna stuck my ear with cotton buds and cover my eyes if that really happen.aiyoyoooo.. Okay, enough for that. I'm stuck with many assignments and homework now.aiks aiks...hectic! will update soon. stay tunned.
再见
人生就像一场不会停的游戏，永远都不能喊停至到你的生命结束为止。经历了数百场的回合，才会成长。一步一步地进入更有挑战性的游戏，同时，也让你跌的伤痕累累。
今晚，心情真的很差，差透了。不知道为什么每次不开心的原因都是因为你。我想，这是最后一封写下关于你的点点滴滴，因为我决定不再抱着这种虚假的希望继续往前走。曾经，很有自信的以为自己可以等，等到有一天你会回头看我。但不管我在多么的努力，我还是不能走进你的心里。整整一年了，我以为还可以抱着这份心情一直走下去，但仔细想想，有根本没这个必要。朋友们都说我很傻，为了一个不会爱你的人，挑战了一个很艰辛的任务，但是不做也做了。对我自己来说，也事件好事吧。今晚，让我想回了很多关于你的事情，不管是开心的，还是难过的，都应该是时候把这些回忆画上句点。唯一令我感到遗憾的就是没有办法亲口跟你说我想说的话。但这一切并不重要了。
从前的我，很执着，转了很多牛角尖，碰了很多钉子，都不想放弃。可是到了今晚，我终于在圈圈里绕了出来。我知道这是件好事，但同时也很矛盾，真的很不开心，很难过。是因为不舍得而难过吗？我也不知道。我累了，终于都肯放下这个包袱不再绕着你跑。虽然，真的很喜欢你，可是一次又一次的被你拒得千里之外。
我每一次都在想，当我走了，你回头找不到我那怎么办。真是很傻，你根本就不需要我，你只是需要你自己？我已经不想站在原地等你。我要走出属于我自己的路，不再会头，不再回想着从前。回忆，可以保留，但感觉，不能带走。
我醒来了吗？
今晚，心情真的很差，差透了。不知道为什么每次不开心的原因都是因为你。我想，这是最后一封写下关于你的点点滴滴，因为我决定不再抱着这种虚假的希望继续往前走。曾经，很有自信的以为自己可以等，等到有一天你会回头看我。但不管我在多么的努力，我还是不能走进你的心里。整整一年了，我以为还可以抱着这份心情一直走下去，但仔细想想，有根本没这个必要。朋友们都说我很傻，为了一个不会爱你的人，挑战了一个很艰辛的任务，但是不做也做了。对我自己来说，也事件好事吧。今晚，让我想回了很多关于你的事情，不管是开心的，还是难过的，都应该是时候把这些回忆画上句点。唯一令我感到遗憾的就是没有办法亲口跟你说我想说的话。但这一切并不重要了。
从前的我，很执着，转了很多牛角尖，碰了很多钉子，都不想放弃。可是到了今晚，我终于在圈圈里绕了出来。我知道这是件好事，但同时也很矛盾，真的很不开心，很难过。是因为不舍得而难过吗？我也不知道。我累了，终于都肯放下这个包袱不再绕着你跑。虽然，真的很喜欢你，可是一次又一次的被你拒得千里之外。
我每一次都在想，当我走了，你回头找不到我那怎么办。真是很傻，你根本就不需要我，你只是需要你自己？我已经不想站在原地等你。我要走出属于我自己的路，不再会头，不再回想着从前。回忆，可以保留，但感觉，不能带走。
我醒来了吗？
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
习惯就好了
Morning! =D
Since i have some time in between, I feel like blogging. How's your day?
Hectic like mine? I know I have to bear with it. I don't get what I'm thinking nowadays, just so complicated.Why?idk.But I know I can recover soon.Standing tough is not an easy job for me i guess? no matter how hard I tried, I was hoping that there's someone who willing to lend their ears to me. I know what I'm doing,but there's still doubts. I'm sure that the feelings had never less but it's getting more bitter.When can I actually forget and let go? idk again.tsktsktsk.
Piuuuuuhhh...times up.going to class.will be continue.
Since i have some time in between, I feel like blogging. How's your day?
Hectic like mine? I know I have to bear with it. I don't get what I'm thinking nowadays, just so complicated.Why?idk.But I know I can recover soon.Standing tough is not an easy job for me i guess? no matter how hard I tried, I was hoping that there's someone who willing to lend their ears to me. I know what I'm doing,but there's still doubts. I'm sure that the feelings had never less but it's getting more bitter.When can I actually forget and let go? idk again.tsktsktsk.
Piuuuuuhhh...times up.going to class.will be continue.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
=D
Hi there,
It's the ending of another week, that means a new one is coming soon.I've to admit, time flies real fast.very fast.super fast. LOLx. mean rite?haha. Tomorrow is Sunday,errrr...nothing special, just wanna remind myself that I'm starting another hectic week soon. =-=''
Today, bro told me to cancel my plan as he said grandma got something important to give us after he received a call from mom. So, i called up to change the time.Then mon came back and picked us up to meet my grandma and auntie at the shopping mall. I was very blur that time, so just followed them until I reach grandma's house. Later, she issue each of us a cheque, she said that's from our grandpa.Sigh.He loves us. I kinda regret for not spending much time with him last time.He's quite, so we seldom talk to him each other.sigh.Now, i will never ever have the chance to talk to him.haih. I passed by his room, saw da bed he slept before, his cupboard,his photos...my tears going out of control but i stilll try so hard to not letting it down beacause i don't want grandma to be sad too.He gave what he left for us, then what I actually give him?nothing =(
Hi there,
It's the ending of another week, that means a new one is coming soon.I've to admit, time flies real fast.very fast.super fast. LOLx. mean rite?haha. Tomorrow is Sunday,errrr...nothing special, just wanna remind myself that I'm starting another hectic week soon. =-=''
Today, bro told me to cancel my plan as he said grandma got something important to give us after he received a call from mom. So, i called up to change the time.Then mon came back and picked us up to meet my grandma and auntie at the shopping mall. I was very blur that time, so just followed them until I reach grandma's house. Later, she issue each of us a cheque, she said that's from our grandpa.Sigh.He loves us. I kinda regret for not spending much time with him last time.He's quite, so we seldom talk to him each other.sigh.Now, i will never ever have the chance to talk to him.haih. I passed by his room, saw da bed he slept before, his cupboard,his photos...my tears going out of control but i stilll try so hard to not letting it down beacause i don't want grandma to be sad too.He gave what he left for us, then what I actually give him?nothing =(
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
dream that never come true
Hey there,
Finally, I'm posting now.heheeee!Btw, sorry for the delayed cause you know, uni's life is always...argh...not so good.errr.... for me,uni's life is abit...idk, "Complicated" maybe?
So yeah, there's many happening trough out this few weeks.It's just the beginning of the year and I start to feel uneasy, as in, everything.Life is actually a joke. Why I said so?my close close friends will tell maybe?
So, what makes me blog today? errr...I got a dream yesterday night and I saw my grandpa. The second I woke up, I felt so bad. Why isn't it real? I miss him so much.super much.In the dream,I saw uncles,aunties,cousins and him.Omg,how good if we still can have dinner or some gathering together. I can remember his smile =) but too bad that was a dream. sigh. Sometimes, I wondering how is him now, where he went, and what he's doing there.But no one can actually anwser my question rite? arghhh.... I MISS YOU GONG GONG ='(
Okay, back to me. I enrolled UWE,started my degree last week,plus I'm taking 6 subject in this whole hell semester. Omg, hope I can bear with those assignments and be more focusing on my studies. Omg, a senior told me he did his revision almost everyday! err...will that happen? to me?ofcourse larh...people get first class honour man..LoLx. okaylar...I will try my best best best of the best too. To be frank, I don't know whether I had choose the right way or not, but I will not regret i guess. Sometimes, we have to made decision realistically,think of your furture? more and more cash? a better life?nice&cool stuff?luxuries? who don't want all this? I know cash can't buy everything, but without cash your life is definitely a zero. Okay, maybe you can say money can't buy love and all blahh..but if your parents got no money, how they love you?they have to earn money for your studies and living cost.So tell me, those love don't need money?
LOLx.I think I should stop the crap.Class will starts in one hour time.hrmmmm....uni life?arghh...go enroll yourself and tell me how is it. =D
p/s: so close yet so far. I know you'll never be mine,but we're just next door?
wakeupkxe
Friday, January 15, 2010
complicated
emo?
moody?
Opss...PMS!
wth?
will update soon.
m so so so tired in the 1st week of degree.
finally, uni's life starts. happy?excitement? fun? frustrated?stressful?
we'll see
stay tunned.
p/s: so close yet so far
moody?
Opss...PMS!
wth?
will update soon.
m so so so tired in the 1st week of degree.
finally, uni's life starts. happy?excitement? fun? frustrated?stressful?
we'll see
stay tunned.
p/s: so close yet so far
Saturday, January 2, 2010
2010~
It's the second day of 2010.
How's your countdown event? I guess everyone would probably involve themselves in to some event and celebration. Same to me, but I'm abit different this year. Got through the night with my parents,cousins,aunties,uncles,grandma and GRANDPA.Yes, I'm glad that I can be with him in the last night of 2009 and it's also the very last night to be with him.
Time flies, god finally took him away from us. Life is like a circle, you will get through several stages, the first day when you born in this world,then you're growing time by time,facing ups and downs,learning and experiencing,getting older and older,after you've gone through all these stuff, you finally walk to the end.So,i guess he had finished his journey and it's time for him to rest after his 82 years. I'm still having doubt. Should I be happy? but I don't have a feeling like that. It's like, someone is totally disappear in my life and I cant see him FOREVER.
The first day of 2010(01/01/10),I will never forget this day. This is the day he have to live in somewhere else and it's a new beginning for him and us.We cried so hard at the funeral,seriously this was the first time I've gone through this.The day we should not forget. I believe that this brand new year will change everything. So, I should be glad maybe?
Thinking of what happen in 2009, I almost cant recall back what had happen.There were ups and downs,left and right. Hrmmmm...
Enrolled TBF
Made new friends
Struggled for assignments and exams for the 3 semester
3a.m at MCD
.......
I lazy to recall back. OMG, betul-betul a PIG. Yes, I am =D
So what's for 2010?
ehhem...I have many new year resolutions kay..
UWE, here I come!
My campus life should be great!
Must be more and more serious for studies since I've choose A&F
Oh daddy, I wan a car, can I? XD
I wanna lose more pounds! =P
I want many many and many awesome stuff! but Idk what's that. LoLx!
Learn to be a better person cause I'm bad.haha
Cry less than last year
Crap less than 2009.I hope i can?
Be more hardworking than 2112321132 years. Since when I'm hardworking uh?Should start from now.
STUDY like a BULL and PLAY like a JERK.hahaha..OMG?
.........
List down what is popping out from my brain first. There's more and more kayyy...haha
Stay tunned
&
Happy 2010!
p/s: I can't believe that I've ard holding it for 1 year.wtf?
How's your countdown event? I guess everyone would probably involve themselves in to some event and celebration. Same to me, but I'm abit different this year. Got through the night with my parents,cousins,aunties,uncles,grandma and GRANDPA.Yes, I'm glad that I can be with him in the last night of 2009 and it's also the very last night to be with him.
Time flies, god finally took him away from us. Life is like a circle, you will get through several stages, the first day when you born in this world,then you're growing time by time,facing ups and downs,learning and experiencing,getting older and older,after you've gone through all these stuff, you finally walk to the end.So,i guess he had finished his journey and it's time for him to rest after his 82 years. I'm still having doubt. Should I be happy? but I don't have a feeling like that. It's like, someone is totally disappear in my life and I cant see him FOREVER.
The first day of 2010(01/01/10),I will never forget this day. This is the day he have to live in somewhere else and it's a new beginning for him and us.We cried so hard at the funeral,seriously this was the first time I've gone through this.The day we should not forget. I believe that this brand new year will change everything. So, I should be glad maybe?
Thinking of what happen in 2009, I almost cant recall back what had happen.There were ups and downs,left and right. Hrmmmm...
Enrolled TBF
Made new friends
Struggled for assignments and exams for the 3 semester
3a.m at MCD
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I lazy to recall back. OMG, betul-betul a PIG. Yes, I am =D
So what's for 2010?
ehhem...I have many new year resolutions kay..
UWE, here I come!
My campus life should be great!
Must be more and more serious for studies since I've choose A&F
Oh daddy, I wan a car, can I? XD
I wanna lose more pounds! =P
I want many many and many awesome stuff! but Idk what's that. LoLx!
Learn to be a better person cause I'm bad.haha
Cry less than last year
Crap less than 2009.I hope i can?
Be more hardworking than 2112321132 years. Since when I'm hardworking uh?Should start from now.
STUDY like a BULL and PLAY like a JERK.hahaha..OMG?
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List down what is popping out from my brain first. There's more and more kayyy...haha
Stay tunned
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Happy 2010!
p/s: I can't believe that I've ard holding it for 1 year.wtf?
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