Hello bloggie, it's been such a long time I did not feel so stress over studies, perhaps I'm over enjoying my holidays and in the previous days I've been slacking like I'm living in heaven. OMG, tell me how to cope with my assignments and studies?  Mummy and papa will always repeat the same old thing when I skype-ed with them, "girl, you better study hard, don't waste our money and effort working so hard for you.". As the eldest at home, yes, I should work hard and make my parents feel proud of me and feel worth it sending me here. Yeah, and I am trying my best now, assignments is the first thing that came in to my head when I open my eyes in the morning/afternoon these few days, I was surprised cause this is so not me, the moment when I open my eyes , studies is the first thing that pop in to my mind, funny right? haha. Somehow, I am motivated to turn my assignment mode on, lol? Perhaps, this is the last last year for me to work hard on my studies, final year is really a hectic year to score good grades. 


So......






KXE, stop blabbing  here and get back to work. sigh, still got lots to go, and I feel better now. Sadly, I guess all of my friends are sleeping now and I got no one to talk to. That's the reason why I am here. FML >.<


p/s: LOOKING FORWARD TO MY SKIING TRIP! *clapppsssss 


oh yea right, unless i finish AMA :( 


buhbye blog. Thankyou bloggie <3 

張韶涵 - 亲爱的，那不是爱情 ( KTV )

Song of the night. :)

恢复

I'm bloated *burppppp! :D


Guess what's I'm listening? 你不在- 王力宏 , you're not here. nice song though, I like one of the lyrics in this song, 你不在，高兴还是悲哀？， 我受了伤再偷偷好起来。This suits me now, yes, I'm on my way of recovering , it's a good thing that I feel happy for myself. It's like, finally? :) tho it's not 100%  yet I know I am trying my best. Sis, you should be proud of me right? Thanks for accompanying me all the way here, gave me supports even the whole world thinks what I did doesn't make sense. Somehow, I never regret for every decision I made tho the outcome is not what I expected. 


我会好好地 :) <3

失去

昨晚，很有感触。虽然知道了有些事情是根本无法改变的，那就让它过去吧。失去了，显然会很不开心但也让我学会更珍惜现在拥有的。身边的朋友都对我很好，可以的话，我希望他们不要成为我生命里的过客，而在我生命里一直陪我走下去。也希望我们的友谊可以很长久。

我要让自己过得更快乐，更充实，因为我知道，前面还有很多东西等着我去揭晓，去琢磨。

我，要为自己而活。 :)

习惯

慢慢开始发现自己不喜欢“习惯”，而且还很害怕。有的时候，习惯就成了依赖，依赖久了就不想失去，越害怕失去，但往往就会离你越来越远。

有的时候习惯了一个人，也会害怕寂寞，尤其是在深夜，好怕就在冷冷的夜晚里一个人度过。寂寞，真的会让人感到空虚。越是习惯，越是知道“寂寞”的难耐。

失去，是人生的一个阶段，虽然很难熬但失去了就得习惯。
再习惯就好啦！晓恩，你可以的。 :)

拥有是失去的开始

如果，拥有是失去的开始，那我会在开始失去的时候珍惜。

来到了这片新的土地，我新的一页就开始了。心里充满了期待和盼望。但有时候还是会怀念，想念过去的甜酸苦辣。

有的时候，还是很想鼓起勇气想问问，你好吗？最近过得怎样？但最后还是把它删掉了。因为我害怕你不会回我。我，对你而言，还有什么意义？应该什么都不是了。
p/s: 真想回到过去

我要快乐

快乐的定义是什么？明明就知道，但为什么还要拐弯抹角呢？明明可以选择，但为什么会流泪？我，真的很差劲。彻底败给了自己。

因为想念，所以你给我的回忆会慢慢地浮现，
以为自己可以很坚强，却只是在伪装，

陶吉吉-愛很簡單(KTV)

那天，有个朋友用吉他，自弹自唱了这首歌，没想到，我竟然感动地掉眼泪。。明明是一首这么久的歌，也不是说从没听过，但那一刻，那旋律触动了我的心。这首歌，让我想起我究竟是怎么开始爱上你，也爱了那么久。顿时，心里很痛，为什么会让我想起你？你留给我的回忆实在是很多，有甜的，也有苦的。但那已经是过去了。
现在的我过得很好，放下了，也开始了属于自己的人生，再也不会傻傻地等着。等了这么多年也够了。现在的我，比以前过得更快乐。　: )

New Chapter

Hello! & Hi Bristol! Finally I'm here, hoping for a new and interesting life here. It's only 8.15am here and the weather here is pretty cooling. I love this place when I first arrived in London airport which I don't know why. Perhaps, everything was just too fresh for me? until I won't feel sad for leaving Malaysia. This is only the beginning of my story here, and I guess I'm starting to love the life here. This is my 3rd day in Bristol, I woke up quite early every morning, ermm, about 6plus? guess I still can't use to the time here. Enjoy hanging out with my beloved gracie and meishan. Met up wit hooi jett yesterday and we headed to the city, ouch, too much to talk about. For girls, I guess calbot circus is a very great place for shopping man. There are lots of clothes and accessories there, the shops are full with trendy stuff.haha..Too bad we've not much time to went in one by one. Heading out to buy some electrical stuff later. Kinda excited to go out again!  I guess I should share some pictures man :P

在这片土地呼吸，需要多大的勇气？

The first day I woke up!

Ss for while 

下一页的我，会去那里？

Feel sorry to my bloggie, it's been ages since I've left it death. very death?


Before I leave Malaysia, I promise to make my blog alive. :) Speaking of leaving, yeah, there's still 5 more days to go and I will be in Bristol,UK. I am kinda looking forward to start a new life there. Sometimes, I am too excited to go until I can't wait to leave in the next day. But, sometimes people around reminds me of my footprints in Malaysia. No matter sweet or bitter, memories are always kept in my heart. 


I wish to meet everyone before I ciao, especially my sister. If you're reading this, just wanna  tell you that I miss you so so much. Don't feel helpless, because no one can help me except myself to get over all these. God is giving me an exam, which made me to be tougher and I will try my best to score A. Perhaps there's still something I hardly get over now, yet I will make it ONLY NOW, but not stopping me to move further. Thanks for being with me all the time whenever I fall down. This time, I will walk by my own, I wanna be the strongest girl and make you feel proud of me alrite? I cried every time I dropped, but at least after my tears dried I will be able to stand up, so does this time. :)
Trust me, I can do it. 谢谢你，让我知道我不是一个人。

Leaving is the hardest decision I've ever made. I wish it doesn't makes me regret in my future and I know it won't.  Perhaps, the reason for being so excited is that I could escape? tho it sounds like I'm lying to myself but just for this moment, please, I wanna go.


This post should be a happy post but it sounds abit emo nao. hrmmm...okay, the next post I promise will be a happy one. I will always keep this blog alive when I'm in UK. 


Stay tuned!  :D

Out from the prison

Hello, I just renovated my bloggie. So now I have got the mood to blog. I just feel so fresh with this new skin. :D

Lets do some updates. Joined the family trip to Penang for my cousin's wedding the next day right after my finals. Though it is exhausted, yet it's fun also cause I get to meet all my beloved cousins! :D . This journey is SO FREAKING long to me as we drove about 5 freaking hours from Seremban to Penang. I have been sitting is the car for so many hours and pity my ass cause the ass was so painful when I reach home. BUT BUT BUT, it worth the price perhaps? cause I did enjoy myself with their local food and Penang is a nice place for holiday. Back to my previous day, my finals was totally screwed up and don't feel like talking much about it cause no matter how, I can't change anything but just praying that it won't be too bad.hahaha... just wanna enjoy my one week holiday and there goes my working life. teheeeeeee! kinda excited for this internship but the feeling was mixed up? excited plus nervous? hahaha. We will know how it goes. XD

Let me share some picha then :D

Our first stop: 富山dim sum @Ipoh

Heard da parents said this is a very famous dim sum restaurant in Ipoh.

The dim sums were awesome. * thumbs up! :D

Reached Tanjung Bungah Beach Hotel around 2 plus and I was impressed with such a nice view though.

Spent our time lepak-ing.

And the cousins are so kind for bringing me to Queensbay mall just for me to buy mascara and eye liner. paiseh neh. XD

Arcade center @ Queensbay mall

The wedding dinner held in the hotel's ballroom. Food sucks to the max :X

Planned after dinner. Penang's night life?

Visited the Hard rock :)

Decided to go to 69 mansion.

This is my second time been there, a very nice place with a combination of club and pub with an outdoor swimming pool and ended beside the beach! Nice place to chilled at. :D

The last one, my super SS cam-whore picha!

Ignore this if you think I am tooooooooo? errr...wutever :P

Since it's my break now, guess I will update more often.

What's next?

Mist Club for tomorrow to celebrate my buddy amy's 21st.

Hope it will be a nice one.

nights! :D

On my way

踏进了五月份，我觉得很多事情都在变了。当然，这也包括我。我相信，这个五月会给我带来许多惊喜与欢乐。但愿如此 :D

我，终于终于解开了纠缠我这么久的心结，重新再出发。 真的很难形容现在的心情，就好像把拉得紧紧的绳子，突然松开，那种轻松既又松了一口气的感觉。感觉真的很好。好像什么东西都重新开始了，没有遗憾，没有舍不得。我觉得，这真的是天意

吧。当我觉定把长发剪掉的那天，就好像把对你的感情也剪掉了，开怀地哭过，抹去了那执着的眼泪。也许，这就是上天的安排，就算把头发留得长长的，但它已经是粗糙损坏的，留来也没意思。

虽然现在的我需独自一人的向目标本跑，但我不怕！因为，在大的困难我也可以去克服了。

大考快要到了，现在的我可以毫无牵挂地，专心得专注在学业上。接下来，还有很多事情等着我去奋斗。

加油加油加油！:DD

早晨

Good morning! I guess this sunny morning brings a good day for me. :D because according to what they said : 雨后总会出现温暖的太阳。 So, I believe this as well. This morning when I open my eyes and I saw a message from the Inbox, it's from my kakak. Thanks for making me warm and wipe away my tears once again, she loves me so much <3 . Thank you kakak. :D

Saw my emo post yesterday? Yes, since it was yesterday, so I plan to start all over again on this super fresh Monday. Focus, is all I need to do now for my finals, hoping not to disappoint my parents and make me proud of myself before I leave Malaysia. Then, my internship is my nextfreakingthing. It sounds that I am so unwilling to work right? NO! I am super duper excited to explore this KPMG and live for an OL life for two months. Hahaha! OL? Can't wait. :X

After all, I know I need to walk the future by my own with a very very very steady feet. Despite, it is not that easy, but I will still walk until the end even without you.

10.00 AM. Let's start everything with a :) Gonna pack things fast and back to Subang now. IDK why I just love to blog nowadays. 谢谢，这个避风港。:D

P/S: Thankyou Kakak <3

下雨了

今晚的心情就像今晚的天气。外面下着雨，而我突然想起了部落格。心里有种很复杂的心情。。。真的很复杂。。。所以，我又来到地这里。

有时，看得太远并不是说不好，但，你想得也多了。我看到的前面的路，但不知道该怎么走。心，也很乱。。。 我希望我前面的路，有你。很想很想有你在。。但是可以吗？我真的很努力地想走进你心里，能吗？

2 years 4 months and 24 days 2424 :D

Hello, coming back to my death blog. I have this blogging mood tonight and I don't know why :)

As time goes by, everything seems to run smoothly for me this year. I hope can achieve my goals and make my parent feel proud of me. I had an awesome birthday celebration for my 21st this year and happy to see and my friends and families attending my party on that night. I have a very memorable one. :D

Time flies, April is gonna say bye bye and here comes May, which means my final exams is coming soon and my study mode is so gonna be switch ON. Opsss..I thought is already on? hrmmm..I have been slacking this few days and also TODAY! WTF, PLEASE LARH KHOO XIAO ERN! CAN YOU BE MORE SERIOUS AND FOCUS ON YOUR STUDIES? LOL! Okay, I should be more and more and super more serious from now. :D *Pray for me :X

Spotted the picture? It is taken on my birthday and I have to admit that I super <3 this picture. Thanks to the photographer of that night, CROSS X. I truly appreciate it cause I don't know when can I still take photo with the person who standing beside me. He is very special to me because I will miss him everyday. WHY ar? IDK. I think I will miss him also when I go to UK. Ohh..talking about this, just a little update to people who still reading my death blog or perhaps no one? Never mind, whatever it is, I am leaving to UWE this year to continue my last year for degree. Hrmmmm...kinda excited actually since I get to study overseas but at the same time, I'm kinda sad. It's like...sometimes, I will hope that time pass slowly so that I can spend more time with my family and friends, also sometimes, I will think some nonsense like...Can I ffk now? LOL! It's kinda impossible already cause the flight is already comfirm. So... keep telling myself, stop thinking this kind of nonsense and focus on my FINAL EXAM! Cause when I think of you, I hope I could stay longer though cause I don't wanna miss this friend so much. :D

It's 2.30 am nao..I should go to bed and continue studying tomorrow.

Have to promise myself no SLACKING this time D:

Sorry that I loved you

有时候，有些事情会因为一个人或一句话而改变。而我，就是一个最好的例子。

两年前，和一位很要好的朋友出来喝茶聊天，常常都会聊到感情上的问题。女生嘛。。。都是这样的啦。。谈心事时，总会露出感性的一面。

回想起那个时候，喜欢了一位男生，那位朋友就对我说，“不如你改变你自己吧，如何？, 至少你有为自己努力过。” 就是因为这句话，我的人生渐渐地改变了。那个时候，对我来说，减肥不是一件很容易的事，其实也让我鼓起很大的勇气，去面对这个挑战。节食，瘦身，运动，吃药，排毒，减肥餐。。。可以说，我每一样都试过。刚开始时，的确是很辛苦，得挨饿和控制自己的饮食习惯。身边的朋友都在鼓励着我，而他，是我最大的动力让我继续往前。还记得刚去瘦身的时候，真的让我叫得死去活来的，回到家，全身都疼痛。但当我看见他的时候，都觉得一切都是值得的。对我来说，我没有后悔做了这个决定，反而还觉得以前自卑的我，慢慢有了一丝丝的自信。

这样，就过了两年。在这两年里，发生了很多事情，但改变不了他的想法。。。我的心意也仍然没变过。

今年，即将要到英国去念书了，我知道我留在这里的时间也不长了。。。很想再一次的和他说出我的心意但不知道能改变些什么。

和他一起的日子里，真的很开心。虽然每一次都会吵吵架闹来闹去的，但也许这就是我们的沟通方式吧。。。

很多人都会问我为什么会喜欢他，而他又有什么好。我总是会说出一些口是心非的话，像是，“我真的很后悔喜欢他咯，他根本不值得我去爱，我要放弃了。。。。。”那些讲的烂借口。

但现在，我再也不想那样地自欺欺人，因为。。。我累了。

从喜欢上他的那一秒，那一刻，我并没有后悔过。。。虽然也会有不开兴的时候，但我并没有后悔爱上他。。

他值不值得我去爱？这个问题从我喜欢上他的那一刻起，已经不重要了。。。

因为但至少，我知道在他某个内心深处是值得我去爱。。。

今晚我不知道为什么我会逗留在部落格里，写着这篇东西，想回和你的点点滴滴。。。

心情真的很复杂。

对我自己说，不要再欺骗自己。勇敢地面对他。

Happie 2011!

Welcome 2011!

Hope this year will brings lots of joy and happiness to all of you. =D

Hrmmm...before I start my long long new year resolution,I would like to thanks to all of you that came into my life. Thanks for making my 2010 so happening. Although there's ups and downs, but I am glad that I have you guys all around. I appreciated those who loves me as you guys are simply too amazing to brighten up every single day of mine. If there's happiness, there are still obstacles that I had gone through in 2011. And of course the 2011 wouldn't be so perfect for me, but no matter what, I know this is a process of growing up. Perhaps, accepting is what I had learnt from last year. =D I couldn't really recall back what had happened last year but it doesn't matter anymore because we still need to step forward as time goes by.

gosh..it's almost 3am. okay, I will just update my new year resolution after I come back from my malacca trip with family tomorrow. weeeEEEEEEeeee!

nite guys!

p/s: nicole lim! here's my post. =p